Saturday, October 9, 2010

crazy news/ HIV/ office job

Oct. 7 Crazy news: I read this in The Globe and Mail. Did you know that the US is the #1 consumer of porn? Japan is the second. There is this 76 yr old Japanese man who is a porn star. His wife is okay with it and tells him to not work too hard. He says she isn't jealous. He usually has sex with women in their 20s in the videos. He makes one film a month.

I was very disturbed by reading it. The thing is, the Japanese have really long life spans and they will watch an old guy getting it on. He says he was discovered by this agent and that he was told that he has the "face of a pervert."

I remember watching Tyra Banks interview two straight guys who do gay porn, and an 18 yr old girl who does porn. They have girlfriends and boyfriends.

Tyra: So does your family know that you do porn?
Girl: Yes.
T: And they're okay with it?
G: Yes.
T: Your boyfriend's in the audience. Are you okay with her job?

Boyfriend: Yes.
T: Does your family know?
B: Yes.
T: And they're okay with it?
B: Yes.

HIV: Today I was watching Oprah and they covered this woman Bridget who contracted HIV from her husband. It turns out he was sleeping with other men. She then sued him for infecting her with HIV and won $12.5 million. She hasn't got the money yet. She's been living with the disease for the past 10 yrs. Her family is supportive.

She's got a boyfriend, and her being HIV positive wasn't a deal breaker. She is also pregnant with a baby girl and she's taking meds so she won't pass the disease onto her child. Good for her. It's good for her to sue her ex-husband for infecting her with that disease. If it wasn't for him, her life wouldn't be so hard. She has to take medication every day and go to the doctor very often.

Bridget did mention that though Magic Johnson is HIV positive and lives for a very long time, his life isn't like the average person. He has lots of money to live off on and to get the best medical treatment possible. Oprah then re-interviewed this black guy JL King who was on the show back in 2004. I remember seeing the episode. He was married, had two kids, but he was sleeping with men "on the down low." In the interview he didn't see himself as gay, because he didn't want to be labeled.

Now in 2010, he says: "I'm a black, proud, gay man." The audience cheers. He's divorced. His ex-wife comes on the show and says she has forgiven him. He is now accepting of himself, and so is his family.

Another black man came on Ulandsey. He was in the 2004 show and he talked in the shadows. He has come into the light onto this episode. He said he told his family about being gay since the show.

Website: I was looking for a job and I found this East Indian restaurant. I found the intro to their website really cool. Cool graphics and music that really sets the atmosphere of their restaurant. I don't know about the food since I haven't tried it. Well check out the site: http://www.daawat.ca/

Office job: I got a call and I got hired at an office position. It either pays $13-$14/ hr. It's really far away, but I only have to take 1 bus. The pros are that I get benefits. I feel really nervous and anxious about this position. I don't know if I will do well in it. Take it one day at a time and do my best.

If I don't do well, I can always get another job. I can make some money off it. It's okay if I get dismissed because I have gotten used to rejection. I have to take this job because it's the best job I could possibly get. Other pros is that I can stop looking for a job. I can now focus on my writing now that I got my top priorities of getting a job and getting an office job out of the way.

I can now take a break from my job search, at least for awhile. I canceled 3 job interviews since I got this new job. I'm not really excited, because I'm so worried that I won't do well. It's good to use this nervous energy.

The past: When I first started working when I was 18, I was nervous about getting new jobs. After a few years, it wasn't a big deal. They were all regular jobs at call centres, restaurants, and stores. The bank job I had gotten a couple of years ago made me nervous, and it didn't work out. Don't put obstacles in front of yourself. You have to go in with cautious optimism about this office job. I learned that it's good to give your best shot, so if you fail, you know that you gave it your best.

Stress: I'm stressed out about this. I remember the actress Melissa Joan Hart (star of Sabrina the Teenage Witch) saying: "I know it may sound weird, but I love stress. It helps me get things done." I don't love stress, but I do need it to get things done. It pushes me.

Oct. 8 Lookalike: Last time I was in Calgary, I found a guy who looked like Prince Harry. He was driving a green pick up. He had the same round face and red hair like Prince Harry.

Cars: The Aug. trip to Calgary trip I saw about 5 lime green VW bugs. Then in the Sept. Calgary trip I saw 2 of the same cars.License plate: I saw a license plate that said "FNOMNL."

Comediennes: This is probably from last year. I found this piece of paper on my computer desk. I had written down these comediennes names down. Margaret Cho and three others were on this show where a group of comedians sit and talk. It was like The View, but not annoying where they talk all at the same time, and you can't hear what anyone's saying. lol.

The comediennes names are: Sheryle Underwood, Lisa Alvarado, and Tammy Pesculito and she has released two movies titled Made in Brooklyn and Everybody wants to be Italian.

Writing: I finished frying the big fish of getting a job/ getting an office job. Today it's time for me to force myself to write which was my other fish. I looked at my notes and I sent the producer John Kerr my Fighter 10 draft back in June. He emailed me back with his notes in July. I then did some writing for it in July.

Now it's October and I have to buckle down and write.

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