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I’m Tracy Au and I have graduated from the Professional Writing program from university. I am an aspiring screenwriter, so this blog is used to promote my writing and attract people who will hire me to write for your TV show or movie. I write a lot about writing, TV, movies, jokes, and my daily life and opinions. I have another blog promoting my TV project at

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Inspirational Quotes (Part 3)

It's the end of Feb. and your New Year's resolutions have been broken or have not been achieved yet. Well here are some inspirational quotes to get you going.

“Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.” –Albert Schweitzer

“If you’re good at something, never do it free.” – The Joker in The Dark Knight

“Whenever you fall, pick something up.”-Oswald Avery

“Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap, but the seeds you plant.” –Robert Louis Stevenson

“Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out.” –Robert Collier

“By far the greatest and most admirable form of wisdom is that needed to plan and beautify cities and human communities.” –Socrates

“Enjoy all you have while pursuing all you want.”- Jim Rohn

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.” –Ghandi

“The road to success is always under construction.”- Arthur Martinez

“How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.” –Anne Frank

“A work of art is a world in itself, reflecting senses and emotions of the artist’s world.” – Hans Hofmann

“When one tugs at a single thing in nature, he finds it attached to the rest of the world.” – John Muir

“A home cannot be truly beautiful unless it functions in harmony with who we are.” – Clodagh

“Culture is the widening of the mind and of the spirit.” – Jawaharlal Nehru

“One must be drenched in words, literally soaked in them, to have the right ones form themselves into the proper pattern at the right moment.- Hart Crane

“Language is a city to the building of which every human being brought a stone.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Writing is a way of talking without being interrupted.” Jules Renard

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” –Eleanor Roosevelt
"Those who know others are intelligent;
“Those who know themselves are truly wise."
- Lao-tzu, Tao Te Ching

“There is no perfect timing for anything unless you create it.” -Psychic Miki (from the newspaper 24)

“We cannot bring the past back to life in the future.” –Psychic Miki

“Procrastination can cause us to miss out on great opportunities.” –Psychic Miki

“If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint’, then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.” Vincent Van Gough

“Through the arts, people learn creativity innovation.” Raymond Nasher

“I think our duty as writers begins not with our own feelings, but with the powers of observing.” –Mary Oliver

“The problem is never how to get new, innovative thoughts into your mind, but how to get old ones out.” -Dee Hock

“A different language is a different vision of life.” –Federico Fellini

“May what I do flow from me like a river, no forcing and no holding back, the way it is with children.” –Rainer Maria Rilke

“To be what we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end of life.” –Robert Louis Stevenson

"Do just once what others say you can’t do, and you will never pay attention to there limitations again."

"The saddest thing in life is wasted talent. - Chazz Palmienteri

"Win by patience, not by pursuing." –The TV show Black Sash "Performance is always the best path to achieving your goal." –The TV show Black Sash

“Character: adversity does not build character, it reveals it.”

“Attitude: The greatest discovery of any generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitude.” –William James

“To live a purposeful life is to live a life with purpose.”

“Man must not allow the clock and the calendar to blind him to the fact that each moment of your life is a miracle and a mystery.” –HG Wells

“In the quietest water swims the ugliest fish.”-Helen Alfredsson (Swedish LPGA star)

“Failure has nothing to do with size, it has to do with leadership.”-Michael Beer, business professor at Harvard University

“There’s no substitute for guts.”- Bear Bryant

“Winning isn’t everything. But wanting to is.”-Arnold Palmer

“If you’re afraid of losing, than you dare not win.” –Bjorn Borg

“The more I practice, the luckier I become!”-Gary Player

“Stories have heart, champions have talent.”-National Post

“It’s easy to do anything in victory. It’s in defeat that a man reveals himself.”-Floyd Patterson

“You can learn little from victory. You can earn everything from defeat.” –Christy Matthewson

“What you do matters. All you need is to do it.”-Judy Grahn

“I shall never fear evil, because I am evil.”-Anonymous

“Courage is a sleeping lion within that awakens when we call.”-Psychic Miki

“Peace in life is found only after you create peace within yourself.” -Psychic Miki

“When making choices be sure they are yours and not the desires of others.” -Psychic Miki

“A warm smile will take you places you will never believe. Smiles and laughter cost nothing, whereas anger and fear can cost you everything.”

“It doesn’t matter how many challenges you face, but how you rise above them.” –Psychic Miki

“When we challenge ourselves, the success that follows is sweet.” -Psychic Miki

“Anything’s possible, when you speak from the heart.” – the TV show Heartland

“Life isn’t about what you achieve, but what you overcome.” –Tiger Woods

Thursday, February 25, 2010

job search/ Lie to Me/ dentist

Feb. 22 Job search: I emailed my resume to be a pastry chef. I made a lot of muffins when I was working at Treats. I mentioned that in my email. I did look up Sara Consulting and Promotions. That company is 174st. so that's really far away.

Spec script: I was chatting on Facebook with Daniel Luu and he told me he went to the session where the Bones creator talked about getting his script produced. D gave me the notes, and I put it into a document. A spec script is when you write for an existing TV show.

Lie to Me: So here's my spec script for Lie to Me. You know how I had written about a girl who's in a religion that doesn't allow her to talk to boys? I wrote it for a Criminal Minds ep and Law and Order: SVU ep in an email.

For LtM, the episode will start off with the principal calling Dr. Lightman and his crew to solve a mystery. The teacher Miss Johnston has been beaten up and put in a coma so she can't tell who beat her up. The principal had looked at her notes and it says that she had told a gr. 9 class that there is a girl who is in a religion that doesn't allow her to talk to boys.

Lightman has to interview 30 students in that class to figure out who did it. The interviews consist of stuff like them asking Erin. She's the one who asked: "Can you tell me what her exact grade is? I promise I won't tell anyone." They think she did it because she asked that question and is really interested in trying to find the girl. However Lightman knows she didn't do it. He can tell that she's telling the truth.

They are able to figure something out with this guy Jeff. There are students who said the girl in a religion must be a freak and that Erin is stupid to be asking that question in front of the entire class. Dr. Gillian Foster picks up on something with Jeff. He doesn't say anything negative about the girls, but something negative about Miss. Johnston.

Jeff: I thought Miss. Johnston was stupid. She shouldn't have told the class there was a girl in this school. She should have said something about a girl in her neighborhood so no one is going to go on a witch hunt for her.

It turns out Jeff was the one who beat up Miss. Johnston. Jeff follows Miss. J to her car after school.

J: Now that no one's here, can you tell me what her exact grade is? I won't tell anyone.
Miss. J: No.
Cut to the interrogation room.
J: I completely lost it. I pushed her, and then she pushed back. Then I hit her, and then she fell. It was an accident.

CSI: NY: If I was to write it for CSI: NY, the episode would start off with Miss. Johnston being dead. Then the CSI team has to dust the car for finger prints, and finds some sort of strand of hair that didn't belong to her.

This show is really science- based, and I can't write for it as well as the other three TV shows I watched.

Inspired: I just got off the phone with the writer Chris Craddock. He's the one who read one of my Rain drafts, and he gave me some tips. I called him up because he said I could call him and discuss more in depth about it. C says he likes Rain's friend Eddie because he's "funny, nice, and sympathetic to him."

You know that IM chat I had with that guy who was asking me sexual questions? I ended up putting that in my Rain script.

Me: It was an IM chat, but I turned it into in person so you can see people's faces and hear the voices to make it more funny.
C: So that explains how they were talking.

C did say it was kind of funny. He is also another person to say my dialogue seems stiff and stilted.

Feb. 23 Job update: I got rejected for the pastry chef position because they wanted someone with more experience. I put a good hour on the internet looking for a job.

1. I updated my profile on by adding more skills.
2. I also set up a profile on Workopolis. Prior to it, I was just browsing on that site.
3. I emailed my resume to work at a hotel.
4. I emailed my resume to work as a customer service representative at a food industry place from Workopolis.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Never Back Down/ Get happy/ funny

Feb. 17 Never Back Down: I found this video of the final fight scene in the movie Never Back Down. It's a really good fight scene. I really like the song that they played. It's Soulja Boy's "Crank That" (Travis Barker remix). The song is a rap, but with the rock band background to it, it sounds really good. It gets me amped up.

I never really liked the song, but the remix makes me like it. In the 3:57 part, you can see a shot of Tilky Jones who used to be in the boy band Take 5.

Rain: I was thinking about my script. What do I like about it? The character's names. A few funny things here and there.

Job search: I got a call from Direct Energy about being a door-to- door sales person.

Woman: You will get paid $21,000/yr. There's commission and you can make up to $60,000/yr.
($21,000 doesn't sound that good. I doubt I can sell to the point I make $60,000. I'm not putting obstacles in front of myself, but I do know myself. I've worked in retail and I'm not that amazing at it.)

Me: You do need your own car right?
Woman: Yes, that would be good.
Me: Well I don't have.
Then we hung up.

Feb. 18:

1. I applied to the Sutton Place Hotel online.
2. I applied to Fantasyland Hotel at West Ed online.
3. I applied to Sutton Place Hotel in person.
4. I applied to YMCA online.
5. I set up a profile on

I was going through all the places I applied. I did apply to Hotel McDonald, but as a server, not an administrative assistant position. As my dad has coined the term "garbage job" like a server. You throw the job away, you can easily get another one. It's not like a bank job where it's hard to get. Well working at Hotel McDonald is a respectable place to work at. I could possibly work up the ranks anyway from server to administrative assistant in a hotel.

Wages: I've been going through the Classifieds, and I see a lot of repetition. Tim Horton's and Mcdonald's have food counter attendants at $10.59/hr starting wage which is good. The min. wage is $8.80/hr. I'm sure you have read in the paper that there is min. wage freeze so small restaurants won't lay off people when they have to start paying higher wages.

Feb.19 Date: I just emailed the guy that I went out with that I'm not a good match for him. He was talking about wanting to get married, having kids, and having a home. I told him that I don't really want to get married, and certainly not have kids. It's a lot of responsibility and I threw in the line with Homer Simpson.

Homer: That's the thing with being a dad. Long hours and no pay.

I wished him luck and told him I wasn't the type of girl for him. I'm not putting obstacles in front of myself. I gave him a shot with the date. I got to know him better, and he wasn't my type. We were both looking for long term relationships, but he seems so set on having kids. We were only emailing each other for about a week before we met up. When you do online dating, if you feel a connection, meet up with this person pretty soon. There's a difference between email and meeting in person.

It's been hours since I wrote the above. He wrote back saying he agreed, and wished me luck too.

Feelings: I'm going to get some Paxil next week. It's an anti-depressant. I'm doing all the things to make me happy, and not doing things that get me angry. I'm doing the personal things to improve my happiness like reconnecting with my old friend Real. I'm also doing my job search. However, after I pass out some resumes, I always end up feeling drained.

It's a productive and active thing to pass out my resumes, but I guess I feel drained because I'm not seeing any results.

Writer's block: While I'm at, I might as well throw in the fact that I watch so many good TV shows, and yet can't think up of a story right now. Or at least on how to write an ending for Rain. This is a mild rant.

Joke: My friend Sherry made a joke about my "Happy Love Day!" (Marge Simpson.) Sherry says: "Happy Heart Day!" I have never heard of that before, even though that was as obvious as saying love.

Feb. 20 Get happy: I read in the Journal that happier people are less likely to get heart disease. That's because they relax more and don't get their blood pressure raised.

Funny: I was thinking about the past and I thought about this joke back when I was in gr.10, and my sister was in gr.12. We were walking to school.

S: If you don't go to college, you might as well be working at retail for the rest of your life.
Me: Fine, then I'll just go work at a tire store then.
S laughs, but she turns away to hide it. Then she regains her composure.
S: Look, the point is to get more than just a job, but a career.

I think I'll use that in my Fighter script. I can't totally take credit for it. It was kind of from Angel season 2 where Wesley pretends to be Angel and protects a woman.

Woman: Or I could run away and work at a tire store.
Woman and Wesley kind of laugh at it.

The other memorable part of that episode was this:

Cordelia: I should have pretended to be Angel, because Angel is more of a girl's name anyway.

Pep talk: I told that tire store joke to Justin today and he laughed. Then he asked me about my job search.

Me: I set up a profile on
J: That's kind of like a lottery if they choose you. I don't know how effective it is.

Me: They give you a list of job openings I had went to or Workopolis and I read about some graphic designer job at a bank. I then went to that bank site, and it said the same thing. I then went and emailed my resume there. I'm thinking I won't get the job, but don't put obstacles in front yourself. If they don't call me for an interview, then they're the ones putting an obstacle in front of me.

Robin Thicke: I was watching Robin Thicke's "Sex Therapy" live performance when he was on Conan O'Brien on Youtube. I found this funny comment below the video: "I don't think he's a registered therapist. Be careful you guys." lol.

Sayings: I remember this saying: "Success doesn't bring happiness. Happiness brings success." I think it was from Ghandi. I must stay positive.

I also saw some of Tiger Wood's apology on 20/20. He said: "Life's not about what you achieve, but what you overcome."

Motivation: I find it kind of interesting. It's good to talk about your goals, so you can stay focused. Talking to Justin made me focus more on the job search. Talking to that customer John about my script made me focus more on my writing.

Scrabble: I just played Scrabble with my sister for the past hour. She won best 2 out of 3 games. She also looked through my dvd collection. That's because she was bored so that's why she was looking for something to watch, and doing something that doesn't cost money.

It's good to do something totally different. I haven't played Scrabble in a couple of years. I used to play that game with S a lot when we were growing up. I was eight, and she was ten.

Feb. 21 Commercial: The commercial I like is funny. There is this garden gnome and he looks like he's sitting on a tropical island. Cut to the garden gnome sitting on the couch, and outside it's snowing.

Gnome: I have got to get out of here.
Maybe it's not that good of a commercial if I don't remember what they're selling. A travel agency maybe?

Song: I was going through my radio stations and the song "Do you think I'm sexy?" came on. I went on Youtube and looked it up. I have heard of the song, but I never knew who it was by. It's by Rod Stewart.

Paris Hilton did a cover of this song. I borrowed her cd from the library when it came out in 2006. I do like her song "Turn you on" because I can totally dance to it.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Allan Hawco/ Regent Research/ date

Feb. 15 Allan Hawco: Hey everybody, Allan Hawco, the star of Republic of Doyle confirmed me as his friend on Facebook! Go watch it on CBC on Wed. night.

Job search: I emailed my resume to be a print journalist at I read about it in See magazine classifieds. I went to and look for some jobs.

Regent Research: I saw this ad in Edmonton Examiner at The position is Customer service evaluator or really, a mystery shopper. The Better Business Bureau says it's good. It's not really an office job. What's holding me back? I guess my dad might not approve.

It says you get to keep what you buy, get paid to shop, eat, see movies. Good for students and moms. Well it sounds kind of too good to be true. Why don't you guys check it out to see if it's legit?

Coincidence: On Family Guy last night, they did an episode where Lois sees a psychic. Then Peter thinks he's psychic. Then on The Simpsons, the opening joke was these tarot cards with the family on them.It's another coincidence.

Last week I woke up one night, and couldn't get back to sleep. Mariah Carey's "Heartbreaker" song came on. I like the video where MC is beating up the dark haired woman (who she also plays.) Then last night I thought about that song. I woke up in the middle of the night. That song came on again, the second song that came on.

Tyra: I was watching this because African- American girl Kenya wants to admit that she's been stripping to her mom and her grandma. She was stripping to pay for school, apartment, and a car. She didn't want to ask for help because she feels like they would be controlling her. She doesn't live with her mom because there are too many kids there, and she doesn't want to live with her grandma.

It's during the recession, and her boyfriend at the time suggested about stripping at a club, and didn't tell her to do it.

Tyra: What did you tell your mom and grandma that you were doing?
Kenya: That I work at a library.
Some of the audience laughs because it is unintentionally funny. A library is so different from a strip club.

When K is about to tell the truth.
Mom: Are you married?
K: No.
Mom: Are you pregnant?
K: No. I've been dancing at a strip club.

They were upset about it and they said they will totally support her with money that she needs. They discussed to Tyra that they didn't always get along and there are problems in the relationship. Kenya is basically telling them that she wants to stop and that she wants financial help.

I saw another similar ep a week or so ago. This guy admits to his mom that he's a male prostitute and that he doesn't want to do it anymore. Tyra talks about the recession and how it's okay to move back home with your parents. There are people 35 and over with kids and they move back with their parents.

Last month I did see an ep where this 21 yr old woman is a prostitute and she wants to quit. The woman then meets with two other guests who were on the show before, who also did the same thing. The two guests are now doing fine with online classes, working as receptionists, and happy. Tyra is going to help the 21 yr old woman.

Saying: I was thinking about that saying: "2 sides of the same coin." I heard about it when I was reading about Chuck on Gossip Girl on It's about how Chuck and Blair are 2 sides of the same coin with similar bad personalities and that's what makes them a good couple.

I then thought about my script The Fighter where Shawn and Mia are two sides of the same coin. It's weird. I thought when I was writing it at first, they were very different. Then I wrote it some more and realized they were both similar in them both having double lives. A professional reader said that Shawn and his brother Carson were two sides of the same coin. I thought: "Not really. Shawn has more in common with Mia than with Carson."

Feb. 16 Joke: There's this guy John who is a customer at the Soup place. He looks like the producer John Kerr. He wore a t-shirt that said "Has been." Today he wore a t-shirt that said "The 5th Annual Comedy Festival" with a ticket that said "Insert Punch Line."

Glee: I read in the newspaper that shows like Glee and V can be really successful for awhile. Then after wards, you need to give them a break so the show doesn't burn out.

Script pitch: Today I bumped into my friend Daniel Luu while at the Soup place. It's reading week. He told me he went to this event where the creator of the TV show Bones talked about TV writing. I emailed him asking for his notes. I then went home and emailed him. I also pitched my script to 5 different people in one production company.

I then emailed Allan Hawco on Facebook because he's part of Take the Shot Production company. I pitched my script to him and said The Fighter is kind of Republic of Doyle because of the action and comedy. Two different shows, same genre.

I haven't done script pitching in a month. I was busy with work and my job search.

Writing: I have wrote 12 pages of Rain in a month.

Rant: Here's a mild rant. I was watching Late, Late show with Craig Ferguson. It was kind of funny. I don't regularly watch this show, but Amanda Righetti from The Mentalist was on. Instead Colin Firth took the whole show, and Ferguson apologized to AR for not having her on the show. He said maybe later that week, they'll interview her. I don't know.

Here's another mild rant, I saw the first 10min of the Flash Forward pilot I missed. I noticed that one of the characters who works for the FBI didn't use the military alphabet when describing a license plate. That's a nitpick of mine.

Motivation: Patrick was on this forum about "Does obsession with the lottery bother you?" Ambelamba says: "Creativity goes so far, but without motivation, you are just as good as dead."

Dream: I had a weird flashback dream. I was thinking about this guy I used to go to jr. high with Scott Hutton. We were in gr. 8 homeroom together. I saw him at NAIT back when I was there. In the dream, I was in school. SH was there and this guy Tyler who was also in my gr.8 homeroom was there.

Something about the bus schedule being written in Chinese. I was at my locker. I remembered in gr. 8 for Halloween, SH dressed up like Zorro, but with a blue mask. Mr. Oxamitny gave him the award for best Halloween costume which is tickets to the school dance. I'm getting another flashback. I saw SH able to juggle these balls in air.

Inspiration: Here's some inspiration. I was looking up Sean Faris and he has acting reel. An acting reel showcases an actor's best work with his best scenes. Write for an actor to show his best scenes.

Last night I'm going to admit I saw some Secret Life of the American Teenager. It was an episode that I didn't see all of it, because a part of it wasn't put up on Youtube. So I was checking out Daren Kagasoff.

Feb. 17 Date: So this guy on this online dating site contacted me a week ago. We talked about TV and movies. I told him he looked like Danijel Mandic (Flashpoint.) So we went out today in downtown.

I don't know. He seems family- oriented on his website profile. Then I met him, and he still seems very family- oriented. He was talking having a family of his own, being close to his neices. I told him I didn't want to have kids, that people think that having a family of their own will make them happy. But it's hard because this person will be depending on you for the rest of your life, and not just until they're 18. I'll sleep on it and think about if I do want to see this guy again.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

job search/ Graham Wardle/ A Valentine's Carol

Feb. 10 Job search:

1. I set up a profile at Direct Energy (
2. I applied for a sales position at Direct Energy.
3. I applied for a help- desk part- time position at Telus. I had a profile there since 2008.
4. I went out and applied to Stantec. (I did last year).
5. I then went to the General Hospital in downtown again, and there was an opening as a Food attendant. I dropped my resume there at HR again.

6. I went and applied to ATCO- I-Tek.
7. My mom told me to apply at the post office, so I did at the one in Shoppers Drug Mart.
8. I went to Kingsway mall to go shopping. I applied at the Dental Centre there.
9. I set up a profile on

Psychic: I saw a psychic because I wanted an edge. I feel like I'm going blindly in life, with no guidance. Sure I got my mom telling me to apply to the post office, and I did. I got my sister telling me to apply to Safeway, and I did. I got my dad telling me to apply for an office job and forget what everybody else is doing. Just focus on yourself.

Then I get some tips from my friends Justin and Dan about working at banks. Today was a productive day. Psychic Terri told me to "Push it. Lots of people give up too easily."

16 and Pregnant: I was reading a thread on It's about how there are probably girls out there who get pregnant so that they could get on TV. However, paparazzifan said it really well: "If some girl is stupid enough to get pregnant as a teenager for a television show, she would have probably have gotten pregnant anyway:/"

Well said. I also did try to calm myself down a bit by saying that though there are 10 more girls profiled in the second season of this show, there are still thousands of girls who get pregnant every year. It doesn't matter if there is a TV show, teen pregnancy will always be here.

Reflecting: I was reflecting on the past again. I know as a teenager, I wasn't really that messed up. I never got pregnant, I never got addicted to drugs like Ritalin. I just took it, and I went off it, I didn't go into withdrawal. I never got to the point I was crushing it up and snorting it, crushing it up and injecting it, or going to a drug dealer to get it. I was depressed, but I never cut myself.

I studied and worked hard. I was in the below average classes, but I managed to work hard and get myself to the average classes. I learned the lesson that it's okay to be average. I know I can't be an overachiever like my siblings and cousins. That's fine. There's nothing wrong to being average.

Feb. 11: Today was another day off so I passed out 12 resumes. 11 were to be administrative assistants in downtown, and one was to work at a call centre for $16/hr.

Channing Tatum: I read in the Metro a few months ago that he was a stripper before he got into acting. I believed it, because I can see it. If I read that Adam Brody was a stripper, I can't believe it. AB is good looking, but he is not stripper material. lol. I read yesterday that CT was going to be on Ellen.

I then typed in "Channing Tatum Ellen" and I got this 2 min. clip where CT does give a little bit of a lap dance on Ellen. lol. CT then sits down.

CT: Now I'm embarrassed.
E: I wish I had some dollar bills to give you.
CT: That's okay. This one's on the house.

CT: I'm not really ashamed of it, but I'm not really embarrassed either. (About being a stripper.)

CT: There are times when I'm dancing, women say: "You remind me of my nephew."

Funny: That reminds me of the joke from 2005. Jessica Alba was promoting her movie Sin City where she plays a stripper on The Late Night Show with Conan O'Brien.

JA: I went to a strip club because I was "researching." (She did air quotations.)
C: I went to a strip club because I was "researching" -to be a pervert!
C did the air quotations too.
The audience laughs.

That brings me to the other joke where Ed the Sock was dissing Three Doors Down video "Let me Go." The story where this guy finds out his girlfriend is a stripper, and it turns out she's doing it because she's a single mom.

Ed: And this actress. What kind of stripping is this? Did she do any research for her role?

Odd couple: I was reading about odd couples in the movies. There's going to be Cop Out starring Bruce Willis and Tracy Morgan. They did show Rush Hour 2 last night. I was thinking about maybe I should turn Rain into an odd couple action comedy. They won't be police though.

There can still be lots of tension and action in a comedy. I also thought about I-Spy with Owen Wilson playing a spy and Eddie Murphy playing a boxer, and they team up. Jackie Chan has already paired up with Owen Wilson in Shanghai Noon and Shanghai Knights. It's always two people with two different races teaming up together to fight crime.

There was Hollywood Homicide starring Josh Hartnett and Harrison Ford. One is young and the other is old, same race.

Sean Faris: He was on three episodes of The Vampire Diaries, and he got killed off. I then went on Youtube to watch interviews with him. He says he gets told that he looks like Tom Cruise a lot. I didn't see it right away. Then I was reading comments that he looks like the soccer player Mario Gomez. Yeah, I can see that.

Feb. 13 Lookalike: It's interesting, the Channing Tatum lookalike showed up at my restaurant again. He came back in Nov. He told me that I seemed nervous. He looked familiar, but I wasn't quite sure if he has come in here before and we met.

Guy: You told me I look like that actor.
Me: Channing Tatum?
Guy: Yeah. It's interesting that after you told me that, 5 other people tell me I look like him.
Me: It's because of that Dear John movie.

Graham Wardle: Great news everybody. Graham Wardle (Ty from Heartland) has finally confirmed me as his friend on Facebook today. I went through my blog and it turns out I friended him on Jan. 17, and then again on Jan. 23. Now 3 weeks later he has confirmed me. I pitched The Fighter script to him again. It turns out I pitched it to him the past two times when I friended him. Well it's good to remind him, and show that I'm persistent. If not, I'll contact him again next month.

A Valentine's Carol: I saw this TV movie tonight, and it's actually pretty funny. It stars Emma Caulfield (Anya from Buffy.) This actress is like Kelly Rowan from The OC. They were both on good TV shows, and after wards are now doing TV movies.

The title is exactly like it sounds. It's like A Christmas Carol, but based on Valentine's day.
EC plays a radio host named Ally where she gives love/ dating advice. Then she is going to get married in two days on Valentine's day. She is then revisited by her old boss Jackie (Barbara Niven.) Jackie used to be the old radio host, until she had a heart attack. She's there because she needs a key to get into heaven. The only way she can do that, is to teach A a lesson about love.

They revisit the past, present and the future. They showed Ally's first proposal from Ben who was in culinary school. When B proposes, A says yes. A also got a call from the radio station Kiss FM to be an assistant. It's a great opportunity. A few months later, the engagement ended due to long distance. Ben is played by Dominic Zamprogna from shows shot in Canada like Edgemont and Tru Calling.

After J gets a heart attack, at the party, A meets a doctor Paul. P proposes to A. She says yes, but then he goes and talks about going all the way to Ethiopia to help people. A rejects him. A then sees the future and the error of her ways. A finds out fiance Matt (John Reardon) is into music, though he's a lawyer.

A finds out she's pretty shallow that she's only into him because he's successful and ambitious and not also the person that he really is. A and M look like they may not get married, but still be together. They end up getting married after all.There is a good subplot of A's assistant dumping her cheating boyfriend to get with Tim the geeky PA assistant at the radio station. A invites her two ex- boyfriends Ben and Paul to her wedding, and they hook up with two new women.

Feb. 14: Happy Love Day! Marge Simpson says that. lol.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

30 Days of Night/ Channing Tatum/ sympathetic character

Feb. 6 30 Days of Night: I saw the last 1hr and half of this movie. I feel like this has been done before on 28 Days Later and Dawn of the Dead, except these are zombie movies. 30 Days of Night is about vampires. All three movies are where a group of people have to fight monsters to survive.

I went on to get a more clear understanding of the first hour I missed. It's a small Alaskan town, and for 30 days, the sun doesn't rise. It's then a gang of vampires attack the town. It was scary, there was lots of tension. It's well- written and unpredictable. There was lots of fire and explosions.

It stars Josh Hartnett. I like him in the cop comedy Hollywood Homicide and O (based on Shakespeare's Othello.) It also has Melissa George (Lauren on Alias season 3, and Amityville Horror.) It was cool to see Mark Rendall. He was on a The Listener episode where his parents were murdered during a break in.

Feb. 7 Quote: I read in The Globe and Mail: "Take care of the pennies, and the dollars will take care of themselves."

I read about the author who wrote The Happiness Project. She talks about how to be happy:

1. Make your bed.
2. Keep a one- sentence journal everyday.
3. Hug people for at least 6 seconds, and do it often.

Tosh.O: Within the first 5 min of this show, Daniel made two abortion jokes. However, I did find something funny and weird. The police raid a strip club.

Cut to a bunch of women in their underwear, and they're all sitting on the couches. The camera is panning around, and the women are all hiding their faces. The camera pan to a blonde woman and she is waving and smiling at the camera.

Daniel: Looks like somebody's parents are dead.
lol. It was funny because it was so unexpected to have one woman wave, and it was weird because you didn't expect it.

Strip clubs: That brings me to my analysis. Strip clubs can be funny, except I don't totally know how to write it. I was watching Parks and Recreation and Amy Poehler's character was trying to cheer up Aziz Ansari's character.

AP: Is there a place where you go to be happy?
Me: A strip club.I was right, they go to the Glitter Factory.
They do some comedy for that ep.

There was an episode of Desperate Housewives where Susan learns her ex-husband Carl has a side business. The lawyer tells her it's unconventional.
Me: It's a strip club.
I was right. It did introduce Julie Benz (Darla from Buffy, Rita from Dexter) to be a woman that Susan helps quit stripping. We'll see how the storyline goes.

I also like that new Canadian show Republic of Doyle. They had a character go into a strip club, but they only showed the outside. Then a couple eps later, they actually enter the strip club. There are only five episodes they aired.

Now I'm getting some more flashbacks of Tru Calling and Lie to Me where they showed strip clubs.

Allan Hawco: He's the lead Jake Doyle on Republic of Doyle. I just added him as a friend on Facebook and told him that he's cute and funny on the show. It's a funny show, it's like he gets punched in the face every episode so far. He also writes and produces the show. I even told him that I am trying to get into TV writing.

Feb. 8 Job search: Today I emailed my resume to a dentist office. They said they were looking for someone with dental experience, but I don't have any. Well, don't put obstacles in front of yourself. They might make an exception. I went to the Royal Alexandra hospital and applied to be an administrative assistant.

Job: I called up the call centre, and they said I don't have any shifts at all for me this week. Just like last week. I asked to make sure that I still work there. Remember last time, they gave me one day of training and decided to not hire me. The supervisor said something about not knowing my availability, and then I gave them my full availability for the next two weeks. When I picked up my paycheck last week, I did give them my availability for the next week.

College: I read in the Metro that college can be like a "holding pen" for drifters. They're wasting time and money because some of students don't want to tell their parents they don't know what to do with their lives. The advice is go get a job, and read up on stuff and then you can eventually figure out what you want to do.

Shawn Roberts: I'm sure you've seen this guy before. He's the guy who kissed Rogue (Anna Paquin) in X-Men. He played a bad guy on Degrassi, a dactyl on Flash Gordon, a mentally disturbed on Flashpoint, a love interest in the vamp movie Thralls. Lots of little work. Now he's in a Mel Gibson movie Edge of Darkness. He's Canadian, good for him.

Music: I was looking up Donnie Klang, and then I found this pop duo called Playback who opens up for him. They're good. You can check out their R&B dance/ pop at: kind of remind me of DK's friend Frankie Boz ( Boz is in a pop duo called FM (

Channing Tatum: He's in Dear John and he was on the Jimmy Fallon show.

CT: Dear John is written by Nicholas Sparks who also wrote The Notebook. Every time my wife and I watch that movie together, at the end, she always says to me: "I hope we go out like that." I'm like: "Why are you talking about this?"
The audience laughs.

CT says his dad is in the movie. It's where he plays a man who thanks John's character for serving in the army. CT actually says his dad's line verbatim. lol.

Charity: If you want to donate to Haiti, and have 100% of it go to them, donate to: Plan International Canada and Adventist Development and Relief Agency Canada.

Feb. 9 Sympathetic character: I was thinking about the lead Amy on Secret Life of the American Teenager. She gets good grades, is in band, well- behaved and she gets pregnant. She's a sympathetic character. This made me reflect back on real life.

I used to go to gr. 7 with this girl Ashley, and she got pregnant. I wasn't surprised because she wasn't good in school and she was boy crazy. If she was a TV character, I wouldn't feel much sympathy for her. It's also like giving this message to teen girls that think: "I get good grades in school and I'm not boy crazy. I won't get pregnant." The point of Amy is that the message is teen pregnancy can happen to anyone.

It also made me think of Angela. She was the friend who told me she saw Ashley at the bus stop and she looked "very pregnant." Angela and Ashley were closer friends than I was with Ashley. If Angela was a TV character, and she got pregnant, she's a sympathetic character.

I do feel sorry for Ashley. I'm not going to call her names or laugh at her. Angela is a honors student, and well- behaved. If Angela got pregnant, I would be surprised. I wouldn't be surprised if she stayed pregnant. I remember like when we were 19, and Angela said she was pro-choice, but she wouldn't go through with the procedure.

Saying: There's that saying: "Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it." I wish the call centre won't give me shifts, because I have come to dislike working there. Well my wish has come true. I still get to put on my resume that I work there. 5 months and counting.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

job search/ psychic/ mix martial arts

Feb. 3 Job search: I got my mojo back. I applied to Safeway and Winners today. The woman at Safeway said that business is slow in Jan. and Feb. after the holidays.

I called Save on Foods back, and they said they were looking for people in Fort McMurray so forget them. They'll keep my resume on file. Treats never called me back. I did call them today, but I got an answering machine. It's time for me to move on.

Writing sexy: I thought of this a month back. It's where Rain hooks up with the bad guy. If she knows that he's a bad guy, but still does it, it would undermine her character. Unless she does it to further her goal. Or the bad guy redeems himself. Or just to make the story sexier.

I remember the TV movie False Pretenses where the lead character hooks up with a bad guy. After wards she learns that he's a bad guy so it doesn't undermine her character. The audience didn't figure out he was a bad guy until the lead figures it out.

I thought about The Fighter. I wasn't trying to write sexy, it kind of is.

1. The cast of characters will be played by hot actors. (The looks).
2. MMA is two athletic shirtless guys fighting. It writes itself there. (The action.)
3. There are a few sex jokes thrown in. It's not sexy, more funny and stupid. (The sound.)

You may be thinking: "Why are you thinking this?" I've been listening to too much Robin Thicke's "Sex Therapy." lol. Last night I was watching 90210 and Melrose Place about rich people doing fun and sexy things. Sex sells.

Writing style: In high school, I wrote about the supernatural and action. I watched a lot of Buffy, Angel, Dark Angel, Alias. I always try to write funny first. I never tried to write sexy.

Then in college, I don't write supernatural anymore. It's more action and drama. I write funny second.

Feb. 4 Psychic: I saw a psychic named Terri today. I only see one once every six months. Starting July 2009 when I saw one at Capital Ex. Psychic Nadia gave me a palm reading at $20 for 20 min. I went to the Russian Tea Room and paid $30 for 15min for a Tarot card reading.

Terri says I over analyze. Thinking and stressing doesn't achieve anything. I have an excuse, I analyze for TV writing purposes. It's good to analyze your feelings to see where you go.

I admit, I gave her a little bit by saying that a psychic Nadia told me I will get a office job by Feb. or Mar. 2010. Terri says I will get a office job real soon. It's there, I just have to go get it. I did tell her I work at a restaurant and a call centre. She says she doesn't see me at the call centre. I kind of know that myself.

Motivation: This psychic is supposed to give me hope. Now I just feel kind of anxious like where is the office job? Prior to going to the psychic, today, I went and passed my resume to Servus Credit Union in downtown. I did months before. Once in 2008, in 2009, and now. Third's the charmed. I talked to my dad yesterday, and he said apply to work at the kitchen in a hospital. A restaurant can close down, but a hospital won't.

Well maybe if there's a big malpractice lawsuit or it burns down. Then it made me think of random things like The Simpsons episode where Milhouse calls up Bart to go to an abandoned hospital. In Dexter season 1, the Ice Truck Killer holds his victim in one.

I also passed my resume to work at the kitchen, and two more office positions at the hospital in downtown. Now, an idea has come to me to work at the hospital by Kingsway. I remember my friend Sonia working at one when she was studying to become a nurse.

Feb. 5 Writing: I got motivated and wrote 14 lines for Rain.

CSI: NY game: I've been watching this show regularly since Patrick started watching it during the summer 2009. I play this game by myself and find patterns.

Sheldon getting too close to a case: I saw him do it twice. One where he met with a victim before she died for a few hours. Another where he is hunting down a suspect who had hurt one of his friends.

Actors from The Young and the Restless guest- starring: I just saw Daniel, JT, and Adrian from The Y and the R come on the show. Both shows are owned by CBS. I have read some actors say that they signed contracts where they can guest- star on TV shows, but only on the same network.

Music artists guest- starring: Nelly Furtado, Nelly, and Alex Band (lead singer from rock band The Calling). Now I'm getting a flashback of 2001. Ed the Sock aired the video "Wherever you will go" and cut it midway.

Ed: I can't believe I let this video go on for this long. I don't let that kind of crap play on my show. Look at the lead singer. Who is this guy? Nick Carter Jr.? Look at him.
Cut to the lead singer Alex Band.
Ed: It's Nick Carter Jr.

Yeah, I thought so too. I even remember in 2002 in art class, I was talking to my friend Chamnouer about it, and she says AB is better looking than NC. I find NC better looking than AB.

Comparisons: I was watching Flashpoint today and they get a guy who works a bank to go and transfer money for the bad guys. I then told Patrick I already seen something like this on another TV show. It's where bad guys take the bank manager hostage at home to transfer money. Working at a bank can be dangerous, and not just a bank robbery.

On FP, the ep "Remote Control" had the big brother being a criminal, and the little brother working at a bank. Big brother Michael was always a trouble maker, and when he was 17, he was forced to make it on his own when their parents died. The little brother Justin was 13 and taken in by his uncle. He had school and a home and turned out fine.

Justin is always taking care of his big brother by getting him out of his jam. The uncle only took Justin, because he had three kids of his own, and didn't want to deal with troublemaker Mike.

Economy: Earthwear Boutique has closed down in City Centre. It was there for a few months. The Book Outlet in downtown is closed down. I mentioned it before, there was a sign that said they didn't pay their rent for $40,000. It's now been replaced by Tips staffing agency. That's going to help the economy more than a bookstore.

16 and Pregnant: I was watching the Teen Mom season finale, and they advertised that there will be a second season of 16 and Pregnant. In the first season there were 6 girls. This time there are 10 more. Damn. I'm like: "I got to watch it. Teen pregnancy is bad." That reminds me of comment about how that there is this show, and it may tell girls to go get pregnant so they can get on TV. If you're a teen girl and you want to get on TV, act like an out-of - control teen girl and call up Maury and go on that show.

I did learn in the season finale, as Dr. Drew was listing statistics. 1 in 10 children in the US are born to teen moms. 1 in 6 girls will be teen moms. I am shocked. I know from a stat that was said on Tyra, that 1 in 3 girls will get pregnant before they're 20, but that doesn't mean that they stay pregnant.

Mix martial arts: I read in the Globe and Mail that evangelical churches are using mix martial arts to get men 18-34 years old to get into religion. You can check out website for more info. I was watching a little interview with a MMA fighter on Spike channel.

Guy: My friends think I'm crazy to go into a fight with short notice, and up against this good of a fighter. But look at me, I'm a cage fighter. I'm pretty crazy. Doing this makes me know that I'm more crazy.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

quote/ plain truth/ high school

Feb. 1 Quote: So I got an email from Real and at the end it said: "A warm smile will take you places you will never believe. Smiles and laughter cost nothing, whereas anger and fear can cost you everything." I asked if he made that one up or got that from somewhere else.

The TV show Heartland's tag line is: "Anything's possible if you speak from the heart."

Rant: Here's a mild rant. It's not good to keep your anger all bottled up. I was thinking about Michael Phelps and he said he had ADD and teachers didn't believe in him. I could relate to the ADD part, but not to the teachers not believing in him. Then I thought: "Wait, what about in gr. 9, when the teachers were recommending what classes the students are to go into?"

All my teachers recommended I go into the low classes so they didn't believe in me. I might as well throw this one in too, my gr. 1 and 2 teacher Miss. De la Salle didn't believe in me either. Now that I got that out, I can move on.

Blog: Someone made a comment on my last blog post. I think this maybe the second time anyone has ever commented on my blog that isn't one of my friends. I remember a woman making a comment. Throw in the producer John Kerr emailing me about the blog.

Here it is:

I recently came across your blog and have been reading along. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don't know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.


I emailed her back thanking her for her comment.

Matt Barr: I was watching Castle last week and I saw this cute blonde guy in the interrogation room. He looked familiar, but I didn't know where. Then last night I was watching a CSI: NY rerun where Nelly Furtado guest-starred. Kyle Gallner was also on it too.

Then I let Patrick watch some of Grammy Awards. As I was watching it with him, I was like: "Oh yeah, that guy was on Harper's Island!" His name is Matt Barr.

Shopping: Did you know kiosk/store Things Engraved in City Centre closed down? I'll add that to the list of stores that closed down. In summer 2008 I applied there, but I was working at the Soup place. The manager said I couldn't go and try out the job for 3 days a week, for a few weeks. They needed full-time, so I turned it down. There were 10 people up for that job, so I'm guessing someone wants it more than I did. I dodged that bullet by not working there because it closed down.

Writing: I rewrote a scene in Fighter. I wrote it down awhile back, but I typed it up today. It's where the character Mia reveals something to Shawn. It's also realistic because it adds more tension to the script. Throw in the fact that I want to live an open life, and it kind of affects my writing.

Joke: I was watching Family Guy.

Meg: I heard there's NASCAR in China.

Cut to the beginning of the NASCAR race. They start, and immediately there is a big car pile of angry drivers.

Me: Oh I suspected that was coming when they started the race. Another Asian driver joke. I thought it was kind of funny.

Fun: Today my friend Chamnouer dropped by at work today. That's good. I wasn't supposed to work at the Soup place today, but they called me up. C worked at another jewelery store for the Christmas season. Now she's going to staffing agencies to get a job. I warned her about those agencies being kind of shady, and wished her luck.

I told her about applying to Save on Foods. There are health benefits when working for them. I heard Safeway and Superstore, if you work there for 500 hours, you will get paid an extra $1 for the hours you worked.

Job: I got full-time hours last week, and this week at the Soup place. I also picked up my pay check from the call centre. I don't have any shifts this week there. That's fine, because I saw the schedule and five other people don't have any shifts there either. We're on the same boat.

I guess I should count how many interviewers are there now to see if anyone has quit. I also looked up Treats on the internet. They didn't call me back. I guess I could call them back. A week has gone by, no messages. She did say there were 10 people going up for 7 positions. That's fine that I didn't get the job.

I ask: "Are you putting obstacles in front of yourself?" I'm not, because I'm working at the Soup place. I have two jobs already, though it's more like one. I'm setting my sights on Save on Foods because they have benefits, and Treats doesn't.

Wedding Crashers: I saw some of this movie on TV. My sister really likes it. It made me think of my script Rain. Let's just say one of the characters has sex with a virgin, and she goes all clingy on him. He is then scared of her.

I already did one comedy scene about that topic with one guy in my script. Then I did a drama scene with another guy in the same script.

Feb. 2 Plain truth: I was reflecting again and I remember a time my sister said this to me: "The stuff you learned in Applied Math 30, that's the stuff I learned in Pure Math 10." That's the plain truth. There's no other way you can say it. You can translate it as: "You're stupid."

Well I know Applied Math is one step above Math 24. It's kind of weird, I studied, attend every class, go to math tutors, have my sister tutor me, and get a 50% in Applied Math 30. Then I go take Pure Math 30 in Centre High and get 63%. I do the hard work in a harder class, and do even better in it.

High school: I was also thinking about how I went into Social 13, and then I did Social 23, and then took Social 20 in summer school. That's how I managed to get into Social 30. Same goes for English. I went into Social 13 and English 13 because I was recommended by it. Also when my sister went and looked at it when I was registering for the classes, she didn't go and tell me to go into grade level.

I don't know if it's about double the work for me. Eng. 13 was easy for me. If I went into grade level for Eng. and Social at the start of high school, I would have gotten 15 credits. Since I didn't go into grade level at the start of high school, I got 20 credits. Throw in a good thing is that in Social 23 and Social 20 in summer school, I didn't have to do the UN debate which is a lot of hard work. So, ha, ha in a way.

The important thing is, I did graduate out of high school instead of doing the bare min. of Math 24, Science 24, English 33, and Social 33. I had Applied Math 30, Eng. 30, Social 33, and I didn't pass Bio 30, but I did graduate out of high school. I did Social 33, because the other 3 classes were hard, and I kind of wanted of easy class to lighten the load.

The next year I went to Centre High and managed to do Pure Math 30, redo Eng. 30, Social 30, and pass Bio 30. I then managed to use Eng.30 and Pure Math 30 to get into NAIT. I did a year there, and didn't graduate, but that's fine. It's still a major milestone for me to even get into college.

Saying: It reminds me of an old saying. I think I was talking with my dad in high school: "The more you do, the more options." If I didn't do those grade level classes, I wouldn't have had as many options. I wouldn't have been able to go into as many college programs. I got into Professional Writing because they only looked at your Eng.30 mark (if you're a mature student, over 21 years old), your writing portfolio, and a writing test. If you're younger than 21, they look at all your other marks in your other courses.

Feb. 3: I do want to say there are teachers that believed in me. I got this flashback of gr.7 when I went and auditioned for the talent show. Dr. Tranter came in and Michelle Smarsh told her that I was auditioning, but waiting for the CD player.

Dr.T: Well Tracy is talented.
This is before she even saw me audition. Maybe she was being nice, but I guess I kind of needed that confidence boost.