Friday, June 21, 2024

"Ricky Martin says he has ‘PTSD’ from Barbara Walters 2000 interview: ‘I was just not ready to come out’"/ "Kaitlyn Weaver hopes her coming out story finally breaks figure skating's female archetype"

June is Gay Pride month and that's why I'm posting these articles about LGBTQ.  When you read this, I hope you will have empathy and compassion for them:


News:

Ricky Martin is opening up about an interview with Barbara Walters in 2000 when the journalist put pressure on the singer to address his sexuality, sharing that the moment gave him "PTSD" (post traumatic stress disorder). 

The 49-year-old spoke to People about his rise to fame in the nineties, which included dance hits, hip thrusting and lots of attention paid to Martin's love life.


 Still, he was stunned when Walters spoke so directly to the subject imploring him to "stop these rumors" and say "Yes I am gay or no I'm not," to which Martin responded, "I just don't feel like it." Now, he admitted that he still thinks about it.

"When she dropped the question, I felt violated because I was just not ready to come out. I was very afraid," he said. "There's a little PTSD with that."

It would take Martin 10 years before he came out publicly on his official website — an announcement that was widely covered by the media. The relief he felt after even made him rethink his statement on Walter's program.

"A lot of people say, what would you do differently?" he shared. 

"Well, maybe I would have come out in that interview. It would've been great because when I came out, it just felt amazing. 

When it comes to my sexuality, when it comes to who I am, I want to talk about what I'm made of, about everything that I am. Because if you hide it, it's a life-or-death situation."

Still, the heartthrob admits that his sexuality wasn't an easy subject to grasp, especially amid a rich history of dating women for whom he maintains he had very real feelings for. 

"Sexuality is one complicated thing," he said. "It's not black and white. It's filled with colors. When I was dating women, I was in love with women. It felt right, it felt beautiful. You can't fake chemistry —the chemistry was there with them. I wasn't misleading anyone."

He continued, "A lot of people have said, 'Rick, you were trying to prove yourself, because of fame and being a sex symbol.' Well yeah, it could be. I don't know. 

Everyone knows you don't have to be a gay man to know that love is complicated. Or to know how confusing attraction can be."

Some of that confusion may also be a result of the lack of LGBTQ representation that came before Martin, which remains top of mind as he makes efforts to be a mentor for younger generations.

"There are many, many kids out there that don't have someone to look up to. All they have around them is people telling them, 'What you're feeling is evil.'" he said. 

"But, you can't force someone to come out. 

But if you have an egg and you open it from the outside, only death comes out. 

But if the egg opens up from the inside, life comes out."

Ricky Martin says he has ‘PTSD’ from Barbara Walters 2000 interview: ‘I was just not ready to come out’ (yahoo.com)


Jun. 11, 2021 "Kaitlyn Weaver hopes her coming out story finally breaks figure skating's female archetype": Today I found this article on Yahoo News:

It's a sport laced with creativity, beauty and strength. 
Ice dance is poetry in motion, two skaters weaving gracefully across the ice surface together as one. 
Their precision and symmetry is something to marvel over.

But figure skating is also littered with judgment — an international panel of judges scouring over every little detail, then providing their score.

It was that suffocating weight of knowing she was being watched every second that kept Canadian ice dancer Kaitlyn Weaver hiding what she calls her little secret.

But now, two years after leaving competitive figure skating, Weaver is tired of doing the dance and keeping up the façade just to be accepted in the sport she loves.

On Friday, the 32-year-old became one of the few Olympic female figure skaters to publicly identify as queer.

"I've reached the point of not wanting to pretend anymore. It really weighed on my mental health to hide consistently a part of who I am," Weaver told CBC Sports in an exclusive interview. 

"I feel like it's the right time in my life to share that I identify as a queer woman.

"I feel like I need to step up because I know there are a lot of young girls and people in sport who are afraid to share who they are," she said.

For 13 competitive seasons Weaver was alongside her skating partner Andrew Poje. The two were consistently near the top of the standings — they ranked among the top five in nine of those years, are three-time world medallists in ice dance, winning silver in 2014 to go with bronzes in 2015 and 2018, and competed at the 2014 and 2018 Olympics for Canada.

But throughout all their success, Weaver knew there was something missing. She couldn't pinpoint it because she wouldn't allow herself to go to that dark, scary place of confronting her sexuality.

"We are in a judged sport. We're afraid to put one toe out of line for fear of what people will think about us," Weaver said. 

"Coming out was never something I considered. It was not on the table for me. Fear. It was not even a real conversation I could have with myself."

Weaver wasn't willing to risk what she calls her livelihood while competing by coming out — she felt it would negatively affect their scores.

"Coming out is still not safe in a lot of countries around the world. On an international panel, who knows what someone is going to judge you for?" she said. 

"It puts you even deeper into hiding."

But now, Weaver feels it's time to step forward. For herself. And for those who are coming after her. Weaver knows what's at stake because she's now able to see how much added weight she was carrying by not bringing all of herself to life and competition.

'What makes us different is OK'

"It's been a struggle," she said. "It's been a struggle to accept this part of myself but I think in the last year we've all had our experiences knowing that what makes us different is OK and something to be celebrated."

This past year, with time for reflection during the pandemic, Weaver confronted her sexuality in a way she never could while competing. She says it was time to look in the mirror and face things head on.

Weaver says it was easy to put it on the back burner throughout her career because she was always on the move and distracted by performing.

But keeping up that façade has taken its toll.

"I've done that my whole life. Skating first, personal life second. I'll figure it out later," she said. "But it got to the point where it wasn't healthy anymore. When the pandemic hit, I just knew this was going to be it. It was time.

"I had nowhere to hide anymore. I needed to do that for myself."


Breaking archetypes

Weaver was born in Houston, Texas. She moved to Canada at 17 and threw herself into her sport. It was all she identified with and how people identified her.

"There's a lot of pressure on young girls and women in my sport to play the archetype. I think it's our responsibility to say yes, you can be that, but you can also be all of these other things, too," Weaver said. "I am those things, too. I like playing the role of the princess and wearing the gowns.

"So when I was uncovering myself and sexuality, it didn't feel like those two things matched. There were no role models in my sport who were like me," she said.

There's a lightness and energy in Weaver's voice now as she shares her hopes and dreams for what's ahead, something she says she hasn't felt in a really long time. And despite her newfound perspective, there are still some fears about how she'll be viewed.

"I'm not sure what waits on the other side of this. There's a lot of excitement. Some fear. But you know what, it's time this stops being a thing. I'm ready to step into the light."


Carving a path for others

Weaver now calls Manhattan, N.Y., home. She says she's found an amazingly supportive group of people there, and feels wrapped in their love during what's been a big shift for her.

It's Pride Month, too — something Weaver celebrated in the past, but not in the way she wanted to. That's changed this year.

"I feel in my bones that I can celebrate in a different way. It's not a small, secret corner in my heart that I'm celebrating this anymore," she said. "That's what it was for a long time, my little secret. It just feels so good to be able to share my whole heart."

And it's Weaver's hope that she's carving out a new path in her sport for those still competing.

"It's really important to look around and ask what we are missing here. That goes for racialized people, too. You look at our sport. It's white. It's heteronormative and it's elite," she said.

"Why are there no queer women? What's the reason? That's why I feel it's my job to ask why we don't feel safe. Why can't you be one and the other? It's our job to look critically at our sport and say what groups of people aren't represented here."

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