"Frankenstein Essay" by Tracy Au (2007)
Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein and Robert Browning’s “Porphyria’s Lover” are similar in which Frankenstein’s Creation and the “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator commit murder. The difference is that “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator murders a woman, and Frankenstein’s Creation is a serial killer who commits atrocities towards the men and women who were close to his creator. Due to their personalities, they each react differently to the felonies that they committed. “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator justified his crime, while the Creation showed remorse for all the pain he caused after Victor passed away.
The “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator is a misogynistic psychopath. He shows no remorse after he murders his lover. The narrator justifies his crime as a way to keep his lover all to himself. He gave himself even more reason that what he did wasn’t wrong because God didn’t punish him. She is married, and he wants to get her away from her husband. He wants to have her to himself forever; to guarantee that, he strangles her: “In one long yellow string I wound/ Three times her little throat around, / And strangled her.” (Lines 39-41). He doesn’t really love her, because he kills her. He could have murdered her husband to eliminate the competition. In reality, she won’t be with him forever; her body will be with him forever. He sees that she didn’t struggle, so he doesn’t see anything wrong with what he did. He pried open her eyes and she didn’t cry. In “Porphyria’s Lover,” the narrator view that he has a good relationship with God. He had gotten away with murder and God didn’t react to it. The narrator confirmed by stating in the last line: “And yet God has not said a word!”
“Porphyria’s Lover” narrator sees women as a way to have power over them because they are weak and objects to him. The woman is married and has a lover (the narrator). The lover wants the woman to choose between him and her husband. The lover than decides to simplify the choice for her by killing her. He views that women are not real living people and he easily justified his actions of murder. In fact, he doesn’t really consider it murder at all because she isn’t a real person to him. The Creation and “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator has similar perspectives on women. The Creation sees women as a way to service him. The only thing he ever asked from Frankenstein was to create a woman for him. The Creation didn’t get love from Frankenstein, the blind man’s family or anyone else. He thought he could get love from a woman who is created like him, for him. He sees this woman as an object, and not a person.
The Creation has many reasons to murder Frankenstein’s family, his friend and his lover.
The Creation’s motivation was that he wants to exact revenge on his creator for giving him a life of lonely existence. He is unable to make any social contact without scaring people because of his horrifying appearance. When he does make social contact, villagers assault him because they are afraid of him and consider him a freak. The Creation gains another reason to murder Frankenstein’s lover Elizabeth. Frankenstein promised his Creation that he will make a mate for him, but then he went back on his word and he destroyed it. The Creation got angry at Frankenstein because he will be lonely forever. If the Creation can’t get a partner, than Frankenstein can’t have one either. The Creation inadvertently kills Frankenstein’s father because he dies after he is overwhelmed when he learned the horrible news that Elizabeth was murdered.
The Creation was assaulted by the blind man’s children. He decided to put the blame of his rejection on where it belongs by looking for his creator. He thinks that if he didn’t have a horrifying appearance, he wouldn’t be treated as an outcast and gotten assaulted when he didn’t do anything wrong. The Creation didn’t find who he was looking for, but it lead to him finding Frankenstein’s brother. When he realizes that he is his creator’s brother, he murders Frankenstein’s brother by strangling him. The Creation wanted to get back at Frankenstein by hurting his family. He frames Frankenstein’s family friend Justine for a crime he committed. The Creation was responsible for her death because she was hanged afterwards.
The Creation is a misunderstood creature. People are scared by him and react in fear.
The Creation doesn’t have any friends and he murders Henry so Frankenstein wouldn’t have any friends either. Afterwards, he tries to make it worse for Frankenstein by framing him for it. He is mainly exacting revenge on Frankenstein and to isolate him by killing his close family and friends so he could be alone just like the Creation is.
Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein’s Creation and Robert Browning’s “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator commit murder because they felt it was necessary for them to be happy if they killed off people with whom they had a conflict with. After “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator commits murder, he is calm and doesn’t feel remorse. At the end of Frankenstein, after the Creation commits murder, he feels guilt. Overall the reader would sympathize over the Creation than the “Porphyria’s Lover” narrator because the Creation has well- grounded reasons for what he did and took responsibility for it.
Works Cited
Hamberg, Cynthia. “My Hideous Progeny: Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein” (Oct 27, 2004.)
16 Nov.2006 http://home-1.worldonline.nl/~hamberg/
Thursday, February 12, 2009
"Against Love" Essay
"Against Love" Essay by Tracy Au (2006)
Katherine Philips’ poem “Against Love” (pg.68) is written to Cupid discussing how love is not beautiful at all. There are many conflicts that come with love. Love causes arguments, jealousy, and drama which makes people weak and it leads to them getting hurt. Getting caught up in the idea of love will mislead you to the wrong person and to a destructive relationship.
The theme is that love is not perfect like the majority of people think it is. This poem is written to Cupid even though he is not a real person. That is personification. It starts off with: “Hence, Cupid! with your cheating toys.” That line tells Cupid to leave and take his ideas of love away. “Makes his own idol, and then worships it.” (Line 10). He makes an idol over the idea of love than the person that he loves. “Him whose heart is all his own,/ Peace and liberty does crown;/ He apprehends no killing frown.” (Line 11, 12, 13). By not giving your heart away, you will never get hurt. You will have “peace and liberty” without necessarily falling in love.
The figurative language has metaphors: “Hence, Cupid! with your cheating toys,” (Line 1). The poet seems to be pointing at Cupid’s bow and arrow as if they are toys. How Cupid cheats with them because no one else has the power to match people up by shooting an arrow. Love is like a game and he has all the game pieces. He has the control to create who falls in love with whom. Another metaphor: “Men’s weakness makes love so severe, /They give him power by their fear,” (Lines 6, 7). Men are weak and love is strong and can take over them. Men are overpowered by love and become scared by it.
There is the paradox: “Your real griefs, and painted joys,” (line 2). Love can only bring you grief and since it’s real, the pain is going to last longer than the love. Joy and happiness from love is a facade. It is like painting a picture. It looks nice and colorful, but it can wash right off and doesn’t last very long. It is just like love, because it is fickle. Another paradox is: “Your pleasure which itself destroys.” (Line 3). Happiness does not last. Pleasure will destroy itself; after it destroys you and your life first. There are similes: “Lovers like men in fevers burn and rave/ And only what will injure them do crave” (Lines 4, 5) communicates that love hurts. Men like what they can’t have and what’s bad for them. Pain is pleasure for them. They know better, but since they are sick, they can’t control themselves. A metaphor: “And make the shackles which they wear.” (Line 8). Love keeps men in chains and holds them down. They are prisoners of love. They will never be free from it unless they control love than letting love control them.
The structure is like a sonnet. Sonnets consist of fourteen lines and this poem is fifteen lines. They are mainly about love and how good it is. This poem is against love, like the title says. The rhyme scheme is that three lines rhyme together and then two lines rhyme together.
The diction uses cacophony with the sounds of how the poem starts off with an exclamation mark. It has harsh sounds such as the t’s in “cheating toys, submit, worships it.” There are also the tough noise of the v’s in “rave, crave, severe.” Words like: “crown, frown, diseased, pleased” sounds unpleasant to the ear. “Crown” and “frown” are assonants. The consonants of “severe” and “fear” rhymes, but there is a disharmony to it.
“He feels no raptures, which are joys diseased,” (Line 14.) He doesn’t feel the pain because he’s not caught up by love. If he was carried off by love, he would experience the artificial joys from it. It would be substandard. “And is not much transported, but still pleased.” (Line 15). He doesn’t get love, but he’s fine with it. In fact, it is even better than getting swept up in fabricated sentimentality.
The message in the poem is to not get caught up in love, because it is fickle. Love isn’t that great because it brings pain and heartbreak. Love is only good, if you don’t get swept up in the idea and fantasy of it, but the realities of it. Good things will come to people who keep their heart.
Katherine Philips’ poem “Against Love” (pg.68) is written to Cupid discussing how love is not beautiful at all. There are many conflicts that come with love. Love causes arguments, jealousy, and drama which makes people weak and it leads to them getting hurt. Getting caught up in the idea of love will mislead you to the wrong person and to a destructive relationship.
The theme is that love is not perfect like the majority of people think it is. This poem is written to Cupid even though he is not a real person. That is personification. It starts off with: “Hence, Cupid! with your cheating toys.” That line tells Cupid to leave and take his ideas of love away. “Makes his own idol, and then worships it.” (Line 10). He makes an idol over the idea of love than the person that he loves. “Him whose heart is all his own,/ Peace and liberty does crown;/ He apprehends no killing frown.” (Line 11, 12, 13). By not giving your heart away, you will never get hurt. You will have “peace and liberty” without necessarily falling in love.
The figurative language has metaphors: “Hence, Cupid! with your cheating toys,” (Line 1). The poet seems to be pointing at Cupid’s bow and arrow as if they are toys. How Cupid cheats with them because no one else has the power to match people up by shooting an arrow. Love is like a game and he has all the game pieces. He has the control to create who falls in love with whom. Another metaphor: “Men’s weakness makes love so severe, /They give him power by their fear,” (Lines 6, 7). Men are weak and love is strong and can take over them. Men are overpowered by love and become scared by it.
There is the paradox: “Your real griefs, and painted joys,” (line 2). Love can only bring you grief and since it’s real, the pain is going to last longer than the love. Joy and happiness from love is a facade. It is like painting a picture. It looks nice and colorful, but it can wash right off and doesn’t last very long. It is just like love, because it is fickle. Another paradox is: “Your pleasure which itself destroys.” (Line 3). Happiness does not last. Pleasure will destroy itself; after it destroys you and your life first. There are similes: “Lovers like men in fevers burn and rave/ And only what will injure them do crave” (Lines 4, 5) communicates that love hurts. Men like what they can’t have and what’s bad for them. Pain is pleasure for them. They know better, but since they are sick, they can’t control themselves. A metaphor: “And make the shackles which they wear.” (Line 8). Love keeps men in chains and holds them down. They are prisoners of love. They will never be free from it unless they control love than letting love control them.
The structure is like a sonnet. Sonnets consist of fourteen lines and this poem is fifteen lines. They are mainly about love and how good it is. This poem is against love, like the title says. The rhyme scheme is that three lines rhyme together and then two lines rhyme together.
The diction uses cacophony with the sounds of how the poem starts off with an exclamation mark. It has harsh sounds such as the t’s in “cheating toys, submit, worships it.” There are also the tough noise of the v’s in “rave, crave, severe.” Words like: “crown, frown, diseased, pleased” sounds unpleasant to the ear. “Crown” and “frown” are assonants. The consonants of “severe” and “fear” rhymes, but there is a disharmony to it.
“He feels no raptures, which are joys diseased,” (Line 14.) He doesn’t feel the pain because he’s not caught up by love. If he was carried off by love, he would experience the artificial joys from it. It would be substandard. “And is not much transported, but still pleased.” (Line 15). He doesn’t get love, but he’s fine with it. In fact, it is even better than getting swept up in fabricated sentimentality.
The message in the poem is to not get caught up in love, because it is fickle. Love isn’t that great because it brings pain and heartbreak. Love is only good, if you don’t get swept up in the idea and fantasy of it, but the realities of it. Good things will come to people who keep their heart.
"Blank Sonnet" Essay
"Blank Sonnet" Essay by Tracy Au (2006)
George Elliot Clarke expresses despair in his poem “Blank Sonnet” (pg.390). He provides imagery such as snow compared to script, drowning in a sea, the poor communication with his lover, and the use of alcohol to numb his depression over a dissatisfactory relationship. He refers to a sad story from Greek mythology to convey his feelings and to evoke a deep sense of melancholy.
The structural elements of this poem are that it’s free verse and doesn’t have a rhyme scheme except for “Lovely Shelley.” Those two words are assonants because it ends with an “e.” It isolates that to get the reader’s attention. Clarke expresses a first person point of view because he mentions “I” in the poem to make it more personal.
“Blank Sonnet” is different from an English sonnet (also known as Shakespearean sonnet) because an English sonnet has to rhyme. It is not a Miltonic sonnet either because there isn’t a volta after the octave. A Petrarchan sonnet is when the first eight lines are about a problem and the remaining six lines comments on the problem. Clarke’s sonnet does not fit the description because all fourteen lines are about the problem. Most sonnets express love, but this doesn’t. It is more of a sad and frustrated love poem where the speaker is trying to connect with his lover, but is unable to because he is too drunk to communicate. The speaker’s relationship with alcohol is not favorable and neither is the relationship with Shelley.
There are many examples of figurative language in this poem. “Blank Sonnet” uses mainly similes. His choice of words: “Undulant hurt, so body snaps and curls/ Like flower.” Clarke compares pain to something as beautiful as a flower. I interpret it as a shockwave of emotional pain flowing through his body and mind. The simile: “I step through snow as thin as script” (Line 4) has snow as the tenor and script as the vehicle. Thin is the grounds which means the relationship weak and its breaking.
“Icarus-like, I’ll fall,” (Line 10) is referring to the Greek myth about Daedalus’s son Icarus who escaped from Crete. Icarus escapes, but because he did, it led to his death. This allusion is a bittersweet story that contributes to the poem because it is depressing. Even when some good fortune comes upon someone, it will ultimately be the end for him. The speaker identifies with the myth when he gets along with his lover, they will inevitably break up.
Clarke writes about language. “I have no use for measured, cadenced verse/ If you won’t read.” (Lines 9-10) The speaker says that: “If you won’t read” is like writing poems to his lover and she won’t read it. “I want the slow, sure, collapse of language” means he doesn’t want to speak to or be around anyone. He wants to stay isolated. He is saying, “If you would listen to me, would you care what I had to say?” Alcohol is the tenor. Another reason for the “collapse of language” is that it’s a vehicle for saying that after getting drunk, people tend to slur their words and are unable to speak properly. A common motif is how he drowns his sorrows by drinking alcohol. “Watch white stars spin dizzy as drunks, and yearn/ To sleep beneath a patchwork quilt of rum,” (Lines 5-6), and “Washed out by alcohol” (Line 8).
A metaphor in this poem: “To sleep beneath a patchwork quilt of rum” mean to fall asleep through drinking liquor. He wants to drink so much that he will pass out and have a deep sleep. “A patchwork quilt of rum” provides comfort and Clarke writes in the poem. Clarke often uses metaphorical terms such as: “Across vision to drown in the white sea.” It is a metaphor because there is no such thing as a white sea. The function of using “the white sea” is to contrast the dark theme of the depression in this poem.
George Elliot Clarke’s “Blank Sonnet” is a love poem that expresses pain and sorrow that a dysfunctional relationship can bring. The consequences of a destructive relationship can acquire alcoholism and depression. The alcohol then provide negative side effects where the speaker is then unable to communicate with his lover and made it worse between the both of them. The relationship is then beyond repair because the speaker can’t tell his lover how he feels about her, and the lover would not care to listen.
George Elliot Clarke expresses despair in his poem “Blank Sonnet” (pg.390). He provides imagery such as snow compared to script, drowning in a sea, the poor communication with his lover, and the use of alcohol to numb his depression over a dissatisfactory relationship. He refers to a sad story from Greek mythology to convey his feelings and to evoke a deep sense of melancholy.
The structural elements of this poem are that it’s free verse and doesn’t have a rhyme scheme except for “Lovely Shelley.” Those two words are assonants because it ends with an “e.” It isolates that to get the reader’s attention. Clarke expresses a first person point of view because he mentions “I” in the poem to make it more personal.
“Blank Sonnet” is different from an English sonnet (also known as Shakespearean sonnet) because an English sonnet has to rhyme. It is not a Miltonic sonnet either because there isn’t a volta after the octave. A Petrarchan sonnet is when the first eight lines are about a problem and the remaining six lines comments on the problem. Clarke’s sonnet does not fit the description because all fourteen lines are about the problem. Most sonnets express love, but this doesn’t. It is more of a sad and frustrated love poem where the speaker is trying to connect with his lover, but is unable to because he is too drunk to communicate. The speaker’s relationship with alcohol is not favorable and neither is the relationship with Shelley.
There are many examples of figurative language in this poem. “Blank Sonnet” uses mainly similes. His choice of words: “Undulant hurt, so body snaps and curls/ Like flower.” Clarke compares pain to something as beautiful as a flower. I interpret it as a shockwave of emotional pain flowing through his body and mind. The simile: “I step through snow as thin as script” (Line 4) has snow as the tenor and script as the vehicle. Thin is the grounds which means the relationship weak and its breaking.
“Icarus-like, I’ll fall,” (Line 10) is referring to the Greek myth about Daedalus’s son Icarus who escaped from Crete. Icarus escapes, but because he did, it led to his death. This allusion is a bittersweet story that contributes to the poem because it is depressing. Even when some good fortune comes upon someone, it will ultimately be the end for him. The speaker identifies with the myth when he gets along with his lover, they will inevitably break up.
Clarke writes about language. “I have no use for measured, cadenced verse/ If you won’t read.” (Lines 9-10) The speaker says that: “If you won’t read” is like writing poems to his lover and she won’t read it. “I want the slow, sure, collapse of language” means he doesn’t want to speak to or be around anyone. He wants to stay isolated. He is saying, “If you would listen to me, would you care what I had to say?” Alcohol is the tenor. Another reason for the “collapse of language” is that it’s a vehicle for saying that after getting drunk, people tend to slur their words and are unable to speak properly. A common motif is how he drowns his sorrows by drinking alcohol. “Watch white stars spin dizzy as drunks, and yearn/ To sleep beneath a patchwork quilt of rum,” (Lines 5-6), and “Washed out by alcohol” (Line 8).
A metaphor in this poem: “To sleep beneath a patchwork quilt of rum” mean to fall asleep through drinking liquor. He wants to drink so much that he will pass out and have a deep sleep. “A patchwork quilt of rum” provides comfort and Clarke writes in the poem. Clarke often uses metaphorical terms such as: “Across vision to drown in the white sea.” It is a metaphor because there is no such thing as a white sea. The function of using “the white sea” is to contrast the dark theme of the depression in this poem.
George Elliot Clarke’s “Blank Sonnet” is a love poem that expresses pain and sorrow that a dysfunctional relationship can bring. The consequences of a destructive relationship can acquire alcoholism and depression. The alcohol then provide negative side effects where the speaker is then unable to communicate with his lover and made it worse between the both of them. The relationship is then beyond repair because the speaker can’t tell his lover how he feels about her, and the lover would not care to listen.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
coincidence/ dollhouse
Feb. 7 Coincidence: There were quite a few coincidences today. I was on the bus and it went over the bridge. Then I got a flashback of 2004, where Patrick's friend attempted to commit suicide by jumping off a bridge. He landed in the hospital. A couple months later he hung out with P at my house. P visited him in the hospital once a week on the weekends. Then today someone told me about jumping off a bridge.
Later I was waiting for the bus, and then I thought about that Stacie Orrico song called "Instead." It's about a homeless guy in the first verse. Then this homeless guy asks for money because he needs $30 to sleep in the Salvation Army. I gave him $2 and when he asked for more, I said no.
Then I got home and was emailing my friend Sherry back. She said that there was some commercial for a dating service for people who aren't single. I mentioned Ashley Madison dating service and how I know about it. Ironically, the commercials aired during the TV show Cheaters, which is about catching people cheating on each other. Weird. Then I was listening to the radio, and the DJ was joking about Ashley Madison. Three coincidences in one day is wild.
Feb. 8 Job: I read in the Globe and Mail a couple of weeks ago called "Daylighting." Moonlighting means working at a day job, and on the nights and weekends, they work at another job. Daylighting means at your day job, you're doing another job that you aren't really supposed to be doing. Well on Sundays I do that. It's so slow at the Soup place, I am writing my script when there are no customers.
Ever since I started working on Sundays, I'm now working 45 hours a week, instead of 48 hours a week because Sundays are shorter work days.
News: I was watching a story on Yahoo news about this 32- year- old New York woman who lost her hands and feet. It was because she went to the hospital because of her kidney. They sent her home with a prescription med. Then the infection spread to her whole body and she lost her hands and feet. She is engaged and has two kids. She can still hold her baby.
Her family, and friends, and fellower New Yorkers supported her. She says she gets bad days and if you have a bad day too, then close your eyes and be thankful that you're alive.
Dollhouse: Today I read in the Journal and they wrote two articles about the new TV show Dollhouse which is also from the Buffy creator Joss Whedon. It comes out this Friday on Fox.
Here is the description from imdb.com:
"The show follows an organization that employs mind-wiped DNA-altered humans known as Dolls who are implanted with false memories and skills for various missions and tasks. When they are not 'at work' they are living in a real life Dollhouse which gives the show the name. One of those mind-wiped humans, a young woman named Echo, is slowly starting to become aware of herself and what's going on - all the while somebody on the outside is trying to bring the Dollhouse down while getting closer to Echo - possibly not aware that she is one of the Dolls he is after."
Journaling: In Short Fiction Forms class in 2007, this writer came in and talked to the class. Every day is the same. Journaling makes you notice details and you will notice that there is color in your life. That's the point of the blog/ weekly emails.
You know what's interesting? Is that I didn't really start that blog until after I finished college. It really began after I graduated out of college. Now I can look over the months and see what I have possibly done since I graduated. To cram it in a nutshell I have worked four jobs.
I want to prove that I do stuff and am going towards something. Sure everyday it's the same. I go to work, I go home, and watch TV, go on the internet, write. By this blog I can read it and see that there may be something missing. I remember a post that said: "I realized I haven't been writing much. I've been busy. Doing what? Reminiscing about boy bands from the late 90s and early 2000s, that's what. lol. I've been working, looking for another job, and studying for my learner's permit."
Rant: Here's a mild rant. My sister gets angry when I say things. Then she goes on my blog, reads it, and then gets angry. If what I say annoys her, then it's pretty obvious what I write will annoy her too.
I might as well throw this one in too. I was reading Metro a couple of weeks ago and this writer wrote: "Dr Phil is an overweight author who writes diet books." lol. Well then again I remember back in 2006, my friend Angela said something about how he counsels people to lose weight when he's overweight. Or was that Angela's mom?
Anyway, here's what some people could do: Go to a bookstore, write a note and leave it in all of Dr Phil's diet books. The note should say: "Why are you buying a diet book written by an overweight author?" That might decrease sales.
Writing: I've been working on Hunter the whole day today. I think I overdosed on writing about supernatural things. I've been writing about that from 1999-2002. It was strongly influenced by watching Buffy and Angel. Then I got into Dark Angel and Alias, and I wrote action.
Feb. 9 Review: I borrowed the Snow Patrol cd last week from the library. It has well- written lyrics. It's adult contemporary and it's kind of boring. It's slow and calm music. It's not bad, but I'm not interested in it.
Let's move on to magazine reviews: I read through my sister's old Flare magazines that she somehow got a free subscription to. It's a Canadian fashion magazine. I like that there are some celebs, and mainly fashion. There is very little insightful articles. It's average. Self is actually a good magazine. Good articles and pics. Shape is a women's fitness magazine and it's average. I'm not really interested in it.
Fun: Today I had a Law and Order: SVU rerun on the TV as background noise as I was on the computer. Then I squealed with excitement when I saw Will Arnet on it as a bad guy. He played Gob on Arrested Development.
Search: I emailed my resume to Avenue Magazine today.
Feb. 10 Headphones: I was going through my financial records and I keep track of everything I spend. I notice how I had to buy a new pair of headphones because Patrick accidently wrecked mine when vacumming. This happened back in June 2008. I then told P about it.
P: Yeah well remember that time you knocked down my Pepsi can, and you didn't pay me back for it. You just put it in the sink. Fine, I'll pay for your headphones.
It cost $15- something, but he gave me $14.25 for it. He took the dollar out of it since I didn't pay for the Pepsi can. lol. I was going to give him $1 for it when he gave me the money for the headphones. It looks like we think alike.
Movie: I saw Thi13teen Ghosts again on Space Channel on Friday. I think I saw it twice before, but I did miss the first half hour. Well at least I got to see the whole movie in it's entirety. Well I watched it for JR Bourne who played the lawyer. I'm getting a flashback of 2002. On my 17th bday, Leslie and I went to Rogers Video to rent out a movie. First we tried to rent Cherry Falls, a horror movie. It was rated R, so we couldn't get it.
Then we tried to rent Thir13teen Ghosts, and we couldn't get that either because it was also rated R. Then we settled on Groove, which is a movie set in one night at a rave. It was an average movie. If you like listening to techno music, check it out.
If my memory serves me correct, I remember S was on the computer and she was registering for a class. After we saw Groove, we put on my The Matrix dvd. Everytime S got on the phone, I lowered the volume.
L: You're nice to lower the volume when she's on the phone. Unlike my brother, when I'm on the phone and I tell him to lower the TV, he says: "Screw you."
lol.
Later I was waiting for the bus, and then I thought about that Stacie Orrico song called "Instead." It's about a homeless guy in the first verse. Then this homeless guy asks for money because he needs $30 to sleep in the Salvation Army. I gave him $2 and when he asked for more, I said no.
Then I got home and was emailing my friend Sherry back. She said that there was some commercial for a dating service for people who aren't single. I mentioned Ashley Madison dating service and how I know about it. Ironically, the commercials aired during the TV show Cheaters, which is about catching people cheating on each other. Weird. Then I was listening to the radio, and the DJ was joking about Ashley Madison. Three coincidences in one day is wild.
Feb. 8 Job: I read in the Globe and Mail a couple of weeks ago called "Daylighting." Moonlighting means working at a day job, and on the nights and weekends, they work at another job. Daylighting means at your day job, you're doing another job that you aren't really supposed to be doing. Well on Sundays I do that. It's so slow at the Soup place, I am writing my script when there are no customers.
Ever since I started working on Sundays, I'm now working 45 hours a week, instead of 48 hours a week because Sundays are shorter work days.
News: I was watching a story on Yahoo news about this 32- year- old New York woman who lost her hands and feet. It was because she went to the hospital because of her kidney. They sent her home with a prescription med. Then the infection spread to her whole body and she lost her hands and feet. She is engaged and has two kids. She can still hold her baby.
Her family, and friends, and fellower New Yorkers supported her. She says she gets bad days and if you have a bad day too, then close your eyes and be thankful that you're alive.
Dollhouse: Today I read in the Journal and they wrote two articles about the new TV show Dollhouse which is also from the Buffy creator Joss Whedon. It comes out this Friday on Fox.
Here is the description from imdb.com:
"The show follows an organization that employs mind-wiped DNA-altered humans known as Dolls who are implanted with false memories and skills for various missions and tasks. When they are not 'at work' they are living in a real life Dollhouse which gives the show the name. One of those mind-wiped humans, a young woman named Echo, is slowly starting to become aware of herself and what's going on - all the while somebody on the outside is trying to bring the Dollhouse down while getting closer to Echo - possibly not aware that she is one of the Dolls he is after."
Journaling: In Short Fiction Forms class in 2007, this writer came in and talked to the class. Every day is the same. Journaling makes you notice details and you will notice that there is color in your life. That's the point of the blog/ weekly emails.
You know what's interesting? Is that I didn't really start that blog until after I finished college. It really began after I graduated out of college. Now I can look over the months and see what I have possibly done since I graduated. To cram it in a nutshell I have worked four jobs.
I want to prove that I do stuff and am going towards something. Sure everyday it's the same. I go to work, I go home, and watch TV, go on the internet, write. By this blog I can read it and see that there may be something missing. I remember a post that said: "I realized I haven't been writing much. I've been busy. Doing what? Reminiscing about boy bands from the late 90s and early 2000s, that's what. lol. I've been working, looking for another job, and studying for my learner's permit."
Rant: Here's a mild rant. My sister gets angry when I say things. Then she goes on my blog, reads it, and then gets angry. If what I say annoys her, then it's pretty obvious what I write will annoy her too.
I might as well throw this one in too. I was reading Metro a couple of weeks ago and this writer wrote: "Dr Phil is an overweight author who writes diet books." lol. Well then again I remember back in 2006, my friend Angela said something about how he counsels people to lose weight when he's overweight. Or was that Angela's mom?
Anyway, here's what some people could do: Go to a bookstore, write a note and leave it in all of Dr Phil's diet books. The note should say: "Why are you buying a diet book written by an overweight author?" That might decrease sales.
Writing: I've been working on Hunter the whole day today. I think I overdosed on writing about supernatural things. I've been writing about that from 1999-2002. It was strongly influenced by watching Buffy and Angel. Then I got into Dark Angel and Alias, and I wrote action.
Feb. 9 Review: I borrowed the Snow Patrol cd last week from the library. It has well- written lyrics. It's adult contemporary and it's kind of boring. It's slow and calm music. It's not bad, but I'm not interested in it.
Let's move on to magazine reviews: I read through my sister's old Flare magazines that she somehow got a free subscription to. It's a Canadian fashion magazine. I like that there are some celebs, and mainly fashion. There is very little insightful articles. It's average. Self is actually a good magazine. Good articles and pics. Shape is a women's fitness magazine and it's average. I'm not really interested in it.
Fun: Today I had a Law and Order: SVU rerun on the TV as background noise as I was on the computer. Then I squealed with excitement when I saw Will Arnet on it as a bad guy. He played Gob on Arrested Development.
Search: I emailed my resume to Avenue Magazine today.
Feb. 10 Headphones: I was going through my financial records and I keep track of everything I spend. I notice how I had to buy a new pair of headphones because Patrick accidently wrecked mine when vacumming. This happened back in June 2008. I then told P about it.
P: Yeah well remember that time you knocked down my Pepsi can, and you didn't pay me back for it. You just put it in the sink. Fine, I'll pay for your headphones.
It cost $15- something, but he gave me $14.25 for it. He took the dollar out of it since I didn't pay for the Pepsi can. lol. I was going to give him $1 for it when he gave me the money for the headphones. It looks like we think alike.
Movie: I saw Thi13teen Ghosts again on Space Channel on Friday. I think I saw it twice before, but I did miss the first half hour. Well at least I got to see the whole movie in it's entirety. Well I watched it for JR Bourne who played the lawyer. I'm getting a flashback of 2002. On my 17th bday, Leslie and I went to Rogers Video to rent out a movie. First we tried to rent Cherry Falls, a horror movie. It was rated R, so we couldn't get it.
Then we tried to rent Thir13teen Ghosts, and we couldn't get that either because it was also rated R. Then we settled on Groove, which is a movie set in one night at a rave. It was an average movie. If you like listening to techno music, check it out.
If my memory serves me correct, I remember S was on the computer and she was registering for a class. After we saw Groove, we put on my The Matrix dvd. Everytime S got on the phone, I lowered the volume.
L: You're nice to lower the volume when she's on the phone. Unlike my brother, when I'm on the phone and I tell him to lower the TV, he says: "Screw you."
lol.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
"Love" poem
"Love" (Creative Writing 2006)
By Tracy Au
You're always on my mind
Even though you aren't mine
I know you feel the same way too
By the way you look in my eyes
You're shy
And so am I
And that's why I'm writing this poem dedicated to you
Hoping that you will make a commitment to me
To us
I can't explain the love I feel
For you
All I know is that it's real
It's true
We've known each other for awhile
I love it when I make you smile
There is no denying
You can see that I'm trying
To determine
I'm the man for you
You may think I'm crazy at times
Because you make me crazy sometimes
In the past
You lost your trust
You acquired pain
I will gain
The trust you lost
By any means
At any cost
I'll prove myself
That I'll love you better than anyone else
Because you're like no other girl I have ever met
Kiss you softly on the lips
I will please you
Keep my arms around you
Protect you
I'll be the shoulder you fall asleep on
Take care of you
Above all
I will love you
By Tracy Au
You're always on my mind
Even though you aren't mine
I know you feel the same way too
By the way you look in my eyes
You're shy
And so am I
And that's why I'm writing this poem dedicated to you
Hoping that you will make a commitment to me
To us
I can't explain the love I feel
For you
All I know is that it's real
It's true
We've known each other for awhile
I love it when I make you smile
There is no denying
You can see that I'm trying
To determine
I'm the man for you
You may think I'm crazy at times
Because you make me crazy sometimes
In the past
You lost your trust
You acquired pain
I will gain
The trust you lost
By any means
At any cost
I'll prove myself
That I'll love you better than anyone else
Because you're like no other girl I have ever met
Kiss you softly on the lips
I will please you
Keep my arms around you
Protect you
I'll be the shoulder you fall asleep on
Take care of you
Above all
I will love you
Friday, February 6, 2009
job/ funny/ the truth about liars
Feb. 4 Job: It was good today. Right before I was going to go to work, ATB Financial called. She asked what position I was looking for, what my experience is, and if I'm looking for full- time or part- time. I said I was looking for full- time, but be willing to take part- time. She said due to the economic downturn, she is at the moment looking at resumes, and seeing if there are any positions available, she will hire.
Joke: I see that Calender Club has now closed down. Well it is February. I am then reminded of The Simpsons where the Chief Wiggum, Lou, and that white cop were eating at a Krusty Burger.
Lou: I was in Shelbyville and they had a McDonald's which is like a Krusty Burger. It turns out there are thousands of locations.
White cop: It must have sprung up overnight.
Calender Club is a store that sprung up overnight in November, and closes down by February. lol.
Saying: Today I was reading my horoscope in 24 and it said this: "Sometimes we walk down a road not realizing how much that experience really has shaped us to get closer to our destination." -Tribune Media Services
Good: I read in 24's poll: "Now that you know that a Alberta woman is on The Bachelor, does that make you want to watch the show?" I can't remember the exact numbers, but 90% said no, while 5% said yes, and 5% said they don't watch TV. Yeah, take that you stupid show. I hope you get cancelled already.
I only watched Smallville because Edmonton actor Eric Johnson was in it. I'll watch something if it actually showcases some talent.
News: I read that Michael Phelps was caught smoking pot. I don't approve of it, but I'm sure he feels really guilty about it, and won't do it again. He has already apologized. If later down the road he ends up smoking pot, then I will know that his apology was not sincere.
Feb. 5: Today I told my dad that ATB Financial called. That shows some progress in my job search.
Writing: I'm working on The Hunter. There is a scene in the beginning where the character Julie is in this unknown place with hospital- like atmosphere, and she tries to escape. That reminds me of Wolverine doing that in X- Men. I also remember in Gingersnaps 2, Bridgette wakes up in this rehab facility and tries to escape. Maybe I am unoriginal with that scene.
Feb. 6: I was looking over Hunter, and then I found a couple of lines that I wanted transfer to Fighter. That has happened before. I had one scene in Garret and Julie transferred to Fighter too.
Funny: So yesterday my sister said she read my blog and thought it was stupid like how I say "I relapsed by watching Cheaters." I treat bad TV like an addiction. I had quit that show, and then I saw it which is a relapse.
Me: Yeah well you laugh at my stupid jokes.
S: No I don't.
Me: What about that time I told you "So the other day I bought a box of condoms because my last one was expired"?
It was back in 2003 when I told her that joke, and she tried to hold back her laughter but she did snort at that which counts as laughing.
Or that other time at dinner. S was talking to Patrick.
S: If it wasn't for me, you'd still be wearing sweatpants.
Me: "I used to wear sweatpants up until I was in grade 9. I also wore suspeneders too so people won't pull them down."
S starts laughing, but uses her chopsticks and bowl to cover her mouth. Well you can still see that her eyes are laughing.
S: Where's that from?
Me: Street Cents. Andrew Bush was ranting about Levi's jeans that have these yellow lines on the back pockets that don't do anything. Cargo pants have these big pockets so you can put a bunch of stuff in them.
I remember this one time in 2004.
Me: This girl Vivian at youthone.com says I should write an article for the website because I think up so many polls for them.
S (excited): Wow, that's so cool. So what are you going to write about?
Then I got this flashback of earlier that week we were watching the old TV show Ghostwriter, where Jamal asks Rob that. I then quoted what Rob said.
Me: Uh, I don't know. Something along the lines of why "Some people run track."
I also did the hand movements that Rob did.
S burst out laughing and hits her hand on the table.
S: Shut up!
Ghostwriter: Damn it, now I'm on youtube and watching old school eps right now when I should be doing something more productive. Yeah well at least now I don't have to try to get the videos or dvds. I then watched the whole "Am I Blue?" mystery about Gaby who is a fan of Galaxy Girl which is a TV show. When it looks like she stole this prop from the show, she and the Ghostwriter team have to clear her name.
I know my sister had a crush on the character Alex played by David Lopez. I liked Rob (Todd Alexander) because he was the shy, quiet guy who likes to read and write. The male version of me.
The Truth about Liars: This was on Doc Zone last night. 50% of us lie to our loved ones. 77% of us lie to strangers. It is mainly to make ourselves look better, and to spare people's feelings. I will admit this one guy on the bus tried to talk to me back in 2005. I then said: "No English" to him so he wouldn't talk to me.
I don't usually lie to strangers. I remember this time in 2004, I met one of my dad's friends.
Guy: What are you doing?
S: I'm in 4th year university studying business.
Guy: That's good.
Me: I'm going to Nait.
Guy: That's okay.
Guy leaves.
S: Ha, ha he dissed you.
Me: Yeah well don't people say when they learn you work at Holt Renfrew, they say "That's bad."
S: No.
Well I know I could have easily lied and said that I was going to university. I told the truth because I don't care what he thinks. I'm probably never going to see him again, and he has no effect on my life. If I lied, he could go tell my dad: "So your two daughters are in university?" My dad would correct him and I would be caught in a lie.
There was that other time in 2006, I was on the bus and these two high school girls walked by and stepped on my shoe. She apologized and sat by me. We had a good conversation.
Girl: So what grade are you in?
Me: Actually I already graduated.
There was this sort of embarrassed and awkward pausev that she made a mistake.
Me: Oh that's okay, I get that a lot.
I could have lied and said I was in gr. 12 at McNally. But then she could say: "Do you know so-and-so?" Or she could actually go to that school. I could lie to avoid the awkward pause, but whatever.
They also talked to this woman that makes false phone records, hotel records, meeting agendas, so it looks like someone is on a business trip. They talked to a guy without showing his face that he uses that company so he could get away to see his lover and cheat on his wife. Man, that is so unethical. I can't work at a place like that. That's worse than staffing agencies.
Search: Today I dropped off my resume to 11 places. One to be a journalist at The Journal. The other at CityTv to be a TV writer. The others were at banks.
I did a lot of walking in downtown today. I went home and took the bus. I sat by this girl Stephanie who I used to work at Xcetera with before I got fired. She came by the Soup place awhile ago. I told her that I was on my 9th month working there. She said she quit Xcetera at the end of the summer because she didn't like the management.
Me: Is Jing still working there?
S: No, she got cancer. They fired her for that.
Me: Seriously? Well she probably had to go to chemotherapy.
S: Yeah, she was a sweetheart.
Damn, life is precious. Then I thought about my friend Angela's brother who had cancer. Then the times I've donated to the Alberta Cancer Foundation. My co-worker Cameron said that at his school, they are selling carnations for Valentine's Day. Each one is $3 and will go towards the a cancer charity.
Joke: I see that Calender Club has now closed down. Well it is February. I am then reminded of The Simpsons where the Chief Wiggum, Lou, and that white cop were eating at a Krusty Burger.
Lou: I was in Shelbyville and they had a McDonald's which is like a Krusty Burger. It turns out there are thousands of locations.
White cop: It must have sprung up overnight.
Calender Club is a store that sprung up overnight in November, and closes down by February. lol.
Saying: Today I was reading my horoscope in 24 and it said this: "Sometimes we walk down a road not realizing how much that experience really has shaped us to get closer to our destination." -Tribune Media Services
Good: I read in 24's poll: "Now that you know that a Alberta woman is on The Bachelor, does that make you want to watch the show?" I can't remember the exact numbers, but 90% said no, while 5% said yes, and 5% said they don't watch TV. Yeah, take that you stupid show. I hope you get cancelled already.
I only watched Smallville because Edmonton actor Eric Johnson was in it. I'll watch something if it actually showcases some talent.
News: I read that Michael Phelps was caught smoking pot. I don't approve of it, but I'm sure he feels really guilty about it, and won't do it again. He has already apologized. If later down the road he ends up smoking pot, then I will know that his apology was not sincere.
Feb. 5: Today I told my dad that ATB Financial called. That shows some progress in my job search.
Writing: I'm working on The Hunter. There is a scene in the beginning where the character Julie is in this unknown place with hospital- like atmosphere, and she tries to escape. That reminds me of Wolverine doing that in X- Men. I also remember in Gingersnaps 2, Bridgette wakes up in this rehab facility and tries to escape. Maybe I am unoriginal with that scene.
Feb. 6: I was looking over Hunter, and then I found a couple of lines that I wanted transfer to Fighter. That has happened before. I had one scene in Garret and Julie transferred to Fighter too.
Funny: So yesterday my sister said she read my blog and thought it was stupid like how I say "I relapsed by watching Cheaters." I treat bad TV like an addiction. I had quit that show, and then I saw it which is a relapse.
Me: Yeah well you laugh at my stupid jokes.
S: No I don't.
Me: What about that time I told you "So the other day I bought a box of condoms because my last one was expired"?
It was back in 2003 when I told her that joke, and she tried to hold back her laughter but she did snort at that which counts as laughing.
Or that other time at dinner. S was talking to Patrick.
S: If it wasn't for me, you'd still be wearing sweatpants.
Me: "I used to wear sweatpants up until I was in grade 9. I also wore suspeneders too so people won't pull them down."
S starts laughing, but uses her chopsticks and bowl to cover her mouth. Well you can still see that her eyes are laughing.
S: Where's that from?
Me: Street Cents. Andrew Bush was ranting about Levi's jeans that have these yellow lines on the back pockets that don't do anything. Cargo pants have these big pockets so you can put a bunch of stuff in them.
I remember this one time in 2004.
Me: This girl Vivian at youthone.com says I should write an article for the website because I think up so many polls for them.
S (excited): Wow, that's so cool. So what are you going to write about?
Then I got this flashback of earlier that week we were watching the old TV show Ghostwriter, where Jamal asks Rob that. I then quoted what Rob said.
Me: Uh, I don't know. Something along the lines of why "Some people run track."
I also did the hand movements that Rob did.
S burst out laughing and hits her hand on the table.
S: Shut up!
Ghostwriter: Damn it, now I'm on youtube and watching old school eps right now when I should be doing something more productive. Yeah well at least now I don't have to try to get the videos or dvds. I then watched the whole "Am I Blue?" mystery about Gaby who is a fan of Galaxy Girl which is a TV show. When it looks like she stole this prop from the show, she and the Ghostwriter team have to clear her name.
I know my sister had a crush on the character Alex played by David Lopez. I liked Rob (Todd Alexander) because he was the shy, quiet guy who likes to read and write. The male version of me.
The Truth about Liars: This was on Doc Zone last night. 50% of us lie to our loved ones. 77% of us lie to strangers. It is mainly to make ourselves look better, and to spare people's feelings. I will admit this one guy on the bus tried to talk to me back in 2005. I then said: "No English" to him so he wouldn't talk to me.
I don't usually lie to strangers. I remember this time in 2004, I met one of my dad's friends.
Guy: What are you doing?
S: I'm in 4th year university studying business.
Guy: That's good.
Me: I'm going to Nait.
Guy: That's okay.
Guy leaves.
S: Ha, ha he dissed you.
Me: Yeah well don't people say when they learn you work at Holt Renfrew, they say "That's bad."
S: No.
Well I know I could have easily lied and said that I was going to university. I told the truth because I don't care what he thinks. I'm probably never going to see him again, and he has no effect on my life. If I lied, he could go tell my dad: "So your two daughters are in university?" My dad would correct him and I would be caught in a lie.
There was that other time in 2006, I was on the bus and these two high school girls walked by and stepped on my shoe. She apologized and sat by me. We had a good conversation.
Girl: So what grade are you in?
Me: Actually I already graduated.
There was this sort of embarrassed and awkward pausev that she made a mistake.
Me: Oh that's okay, I get that a lot.
I could have lied and said I was in gr. 12 at McNally. But then she could say: "Do you know so-and-so?" Or she could actually go to that school. I could lie to avoid the awkward pause, but whatever.
They also talked to this woman that makes false phone records, hotel records, meeting agendas, so it looks like someone is on a business trip. They talked to a guy without showing his face that he uses that company so he could get away to see his lover and cheat on his wife. Man, that is so unethical. I can't work at a place like that. That's worse than staffing agencies.
Search: Today I dropped off my resume to 11 places. One to be a journalist at The Journal. The other at CityTv to be a TV writer. The others were at banks.
I did a lot of walking in downtown today. I went home and took the bus. I sat by this girl Stephanie who I used to work at Xcetera with before I got fired. She came by the Soup place awhile ago. I told her that I was on my 9th month working there. She said she quit Xcetera at the end of the summer because she didn't like the management.
Me: Is Jing still working there?
S: No, she got cancer. They fired her for that.
Me: Seriously? Well she probably had to go to chemotherapy.
S: Yeah, she was a sweetheart.
Damn, life is precious. Then I thought about my friend Angela's brother who had cancer. Then the times I've donated to the Alberta Cancer Foundation. My co-worker Cameron said that at his school, they are selling carnations for Valentine's Day. Each one is $3 and will go towards the a cancer charity.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
news/ music/ picking up
Jan. 31 News: I was watching this W- Five special presentation called Dangerous Obsession: The Stalking Epidemic. It profiled 2 women and a man. One woman was stalked by a guy when she was in high school in the 1970s. Then in the 80s she got married and at the wedding she got family members posted at all the exits to make sure the stalker wouldn't show up. She even planned how if she was ever confronted by her stalker, she would go to her baby's room and lock the door. Put the dresser in front of the door. Get her phone and go into the closet to dial 911. Then if he managed to break through, she would take her baby and climb out the window where there is an emergency ladder with her baby.
She had made a conscious decision to not have more than one kid. If she did have more than one, she wouldn't be able to carry two kids down the ladder. She also made a decision to not go to college because she wanted to be close to her family and needed that safety net. Later technology came and she got caller ID and never picked up the phone when it was him. He made a threat to kill her. She then called the cops and pressed charges on him. He went to jail for a year. She and her family moved away and changed their names, and removed their identities from the public records. He was released from jail, and then he was murdered at his halfway house.
They covered a story of a man who was a swim coach at this university. This one female student interacted with him five times over the summer. Then she starts leaving gifts for him. She then starts stalking him. The guy Liam goes and straight- up tell her he's not interested in dating her and to not leave him gifts. She cries and runs out.Then she starts calling him, and whenever he knows it's her, he hangs up. He talks to the school's harassment centre, and they tell him to ignore her. It's also good to record everything. She was sending these sexually explicit emails to him, and he never responded. He kept all of them. Then he calls the police, and a female cop tells him that he's being stalked and he needs to press charges on her. He does.
Then the stalker makes it seem like he's the bad guy. She accuses him of date- rape and being in a abusive relationship. He hires a lawyer and Liam wasn't there in court. The people in court believed the stalker, and Liam lost his job. Then Liam hired another lawyer. Liam got the media involved. The woman then went into hiding from the media. The university apologized and gave him his job back.
They profiled a woman named Karen, and her face wasn't shown. She was at work and was introduced to a co-worker. He asks her out. She says no. Next week he asks again, and she says no. Then he asks again and she says no and provides a reason that she wants to focus on her career. Then he starts leaving gifts for her. She tells him that she's not interested and gives this card back. He lashes out at her.She tells her manager. She tells the police. Then later he gets fired after he was intimidating her after the cops got involved. Then later she had to quit her job. She moved to Canada and she did press charges on him. He was in jail for three years which is a long time for stalking. He got counts of mischief, and harassment.
Feb. 1 Music: I borrowed the Sarah Bereillis cd from the library last week. She had that single called "Love song." I actually found myself like tracks like: "Vegas", "Morning Side", the ballad "Gravity" and my fave track "Come Round Soon."
Motivation: I feel like I'm lacking motivation, inspiration, and fire into getting a real job. Well last summer I got a lot of fire in me by passing out over 100 resumes. Then I got a job at bank, worked there for a month, and went back to making soup and sandwiches for another four months. I thought there was no point in trying to look for a real job because I was going to go back to school.
Now it turns out that I don't have to go back to school. What did I do for the four days I had off last month? I went to West Ed, and only passed out 24 resumes in that month. I need to get myself out there.
Writing: Less talk, more action. I spent 80 minutes reading, editing, and did a little more writing on The Fighter. I wrote one more page. In total I have 64 pages. I'm getting there.
Feb. 3: Good news guys. Pauline from Media Masters emailed me saying that they aren't producing movies this year. Though she rejected me, she did tell me to go to Panacea Entertainment. Then I went through my papers, and saw that Terri from Dynacor Media told me about it too when I did that job interview with her last summer. Except I think she said Panacea Productions and that lead me to this London production company.
Anyway, today I went to www.panaceaentertainment.com and it's a great website. I then emailed them my script pitch. It was interesting to read the submission policy. They said they wanted to know a few lines about the writer, and a few lines about the script. They want a draft already. Man, I am getting excited. I then emailed them.
I was on twop.com reading about Law and Order: SVU and I found this really interesting and thought- provoking comment: "This is something that I have discussed with various other people, in terms of wondering why rape is not covered as a hate crime (it IS picking a victim based on membership of a specific subset of the population to commit an action that subsequently terrorizes a larger part of the population). This is dealt with in the Derrick Jensen book The Culture of Make Believe.
Dave Franco: I was watching Privleged with my sister and there is this guy Zach played by Dave Franco. I thought he was cute so I looked him up. It turns out he is the little brother to James Franco. Here's a pic of him:
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2002649/
When I see D smile, I see J's eyes and teeth.
Feb. 4 The Listener: I got another email from the Facebook group The Listener TV show. They interviewed the cast members, and show clips giving a back story of it. I am so inspired watching it. Here's a trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jheIu56yU4A
Picking Up: I saw a little bit of Primetime: What would you do? on Yahoo today. It's about what would bystanders do if they saw a guy aggressively hit on a woman. The bystanders invited the woman to sit with them, and told the guy to back off. Here's how to turn down a guy with these lines:
"I have a boyfriend."
"I'm gay."
"I only date black guys." (Or any race other than his.)
On the show, that guy was asking for her phone number and the actress was acting uncomfortable saying that she doesn't know him. She should have given him a fake phone number or give an email address like ihatemen@yahoo.com. I saw that in a cartoon with a woman saying that to a guy once. lol.
I also read these lines in The Action Hero's Handbook by David Borgenicht and Joe Borgenicht. It's a fun book published by Quirk Books. There is stuff on how to fight skills, escape skill, and love skills like how to get someone to stop hitting on you.
"Where have you been all my life?"
"Hiding from you."
"Haven't I've seen you someplace before?"
"Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore."
"What do you do for a living?"
"I'm a male/ female impersonator."
"What's your sign?"
"Do not enter."
She had made a conscious decision to not have more than one kid. If she did have more than one, she wouldn't be able to carry two kids down the ladder. She also made a decision to not go to college because she wanted to be close to her family and needed that safety net. Later technology came and she got caller ID and never picked up the phone when it was him. He made a threat to kill her. She then called the cops and pressed charges on him. He went to jail for a year. She and her family moved away and changed their names, and removed their identities from the public records. He was released from jail, and then he was murdered at his halfway house.
They covered a story of a man who was a swim coach at this university. This one female student interacted with him five times over the summer. Then she starts leaving gifts for him. She then starts stalking him. The guy Liam goes and straight- up tell her he's not interested in dating her and to not leave him gifts. She cries and runs out.Then she starts calling him, and whenever he knows it's her, he hangs up. He talks to the school's harassment centre, and they tell him to ignore her. It's also good to record everything. She was sending these sexually explicit emails to him, and he never responded. He kept all of them. Then he calls the police, and a female cop tells him that he's being stalked and he needs to press charges on her. He does.
Then the stalker makes it seem like he's the bad guy. She accuses him of date- rape and being in a abusive relationship. He hires a lawyer and Liam wasn't there in court. The people in court believed the stalker, and Liam lost his job. Then Liam hired another lawyer. Liam got the media involved. The woman then went into hiding from the media. The university apologized and gave him his job back.
They profiled a woman named Karen, and her face wasn't shown. She was at work and was introduced to a co-worker. He asks her out. She says no. Next week he asks again, and she says no. Then he asks again and she says no and provides a reason that she wants to focus on her career. Then he starts leaving gifts for her. She tells him that she's not interested and gives this card back. He lashes out at her.She tells her manager. She tells the police. Then later he gets fired after he was intimidating her after the cops got involved. Then later she had to quit her job. She moved to Canada and she did press charges on him. He was in jail for three years which is a long time for stalking. He got counts of mischief, and harassment.
Feb. 1 Music: I borrowed the Sarah Bereillis cd from the library last week. She had that single called "Love song." I actually found myself like tracks like: "Vegas", "Morning Side", the ballad "Gravity" and my fave track "Come Round Soon."
Motivation: I feel like I'm lacking motivation, inspiration, and fire into getting a real job. Well last summer I got a lot of fire in me by passing out over 100 resumes. Then I got a job at bank, worked there for a month, and went back to making soup and sandwiches for another four months. I thought there was no point in trying to look for a real job because I was going to go back to school.
Now it turns out that I don't have to go back to school. What did I do for the four days I had off last month? I went to West Ed, and only passed out 24 resumes in that month. I need to get myself out there.
Writing: Less talk, more action. I spent 80 minutes reading, editing, and did a little more writing on The Fighter. I wrote one more page. In total I have 64 pages. I'm getting there.
Feb. 3: Good news guys. Pauline from Media Masters emailed me saying that they aren't producing movies this year. Though she rejected me, she did tell me to go to Panacea Entertainment. Then I went through my papers, and saw that Terri from Dynacor Media told me about it too when I did that job interview with her last summer. Except I think she said Panacea Productions and that lead me to this London production company.
Anyway, today I went to www.panaceaentertainment.com and it's a great website. I then emailed them my script pitch. It was interesting to read the submission policy. They said they wanted to know a few lines about the writer, and a few lines about the script. They want a draft already. Man, I am getting excited. I then emailed them.
I was on twop.com reading about Law and Order: SVU and I found this really interesting and thought- provoking comment: "This is something that I have discussed with various other people, in terms of wondering why rape is not covered as a hate crime (it IS picking a victim based on membership of a specific subset of the population to commit an action that subsequently terrorizes a larger part of the population). This is dealt with in the Derrick Jensen book The Culture of Make Believe.
Dave Franco: I was watching Privleged with my sister and there is this guy Zach played by Dave Franco. I thought he was cute so I looked him up. It turns out he is the little brother to James Franco. Here's a pic of him:
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2002649/
When I see D smile, I see J's eyes and teeth.
Feb. 4 The Listener: I got another email from the Facebook group The Listener TV show. They interviewed the cast members, and show clips giving a back story of it. I am so inspired watching it. Here's a trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jheIu56yU4A
Picking Up: I saw a little bit of Primetime: What would you do? on Yahoo today. It's about what would bystanders do if they saw a guy aggressively hit on a woman. The bystanders invited the woman to sit with them, and told the guy to back off. Here's how to turn down a guy with these lines:
"I have a boyfriend."
"I'm gay."
"I only date black guys." (Or any race other than his.)
On the show, that guy was asking for her phone number and the actress was acting uncomfortable saying that she doesn't know him. She should have given him a fake phone number or give an email address like ihatemen@yahoo.com. I saw that in a cartoon with a woman saying that to a guy once. lol.
I also read these lines in The Action Hero's Handbook by David Borgenicht and Joe Borgenicht. It's a fun book published by Quirk Books. There is stuff on how to fight skills, escape skill, and love skills like how to get someone to stop hitting on you.
"Where have you been all my life?"
"Hiding from you."
"Haven't I've seen you someplace before?"
"Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore."
"What do you do for a living?"
"I'm a male/ female impersonator."
"What's your sign?"
"Do not enter."
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